Eden of the Melody

Feelings

2011-09-29T21:41:00.001+08:00

What is this feeling ? Mmmm I dun noe ... Maybe I m juz picking bad points only n not the good wans I need to rely on someone I dun noe y I can't trust ur words and feel secured .
Is it cause I have enough of trusting . After in need of help I m shun apart again or juz bringing it over n I have to solve it my own n own ways yes there were morale support however seriously ...
Ahhh or cause I m not trustable enough ? I dun nor I dun noe I hate this insecurities haixz it's always said but not done . Can u imagine when frm now everytime ur were saying trust u , U will be there for me I automatically will tell myself like ya right ... When time in need I will still have to solve myself . Words r really cheap .... Y m I not born to be rich . Y can't I try to be rich ..... Ahhh I dun understand how to go thru this no income no work .....
Money o money plz drop down frm the sky ... Mmmm o fairy god mother where r u ? I need u now !!!!

What I want frm a bf ?
Securities ? I need him to be the alpha male where I will not need to think abt protection myself cuz his there . When time in needs his Always there noeing wat to do ... Or wat need to be done . By this 2 points I think 90 % of the guys had failed that n the rest 9% r alrdy married or dead left 1% missing haha ... Oh dear my bf see this will be so mad at me .. But really I dun bare to said it right infront his face as it hurts it does . When he needs me n I can't do anything i feel hurt too ... Haixz I m I m I m asking for to much askin the perfect the sky n the stars which is purely impossible !!!
Pisces like me have to wake up frm lala land . However there is this energy which makes us want to believe that unicorn really do fart rainbow out mmmm

Sometimes

2011-09-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

Some time seriously I dun noe understand, y y y n y ?

Is so shameful to let ur elder or even younger sib to hear u making out ...

Haiz I dun noe the exact word but u should think abt respecting ur dignity ur partner dignity as well as ur elders ...

How to face the elders ...
N it's an enclose room for godsake do u think they can't hear shuffling of bed smooching noise n the heavy breathing ?

It's such a ps thing is it so hard to control smooching alright further deeper then tat plz ......

Haixz really how to ???
It's so hard should I be pissed ? M I juz being petty again ? N later on I will feel Guilty again ... Saying this n being pisses den late I n spoiling mood all over again .. All over again ... All over again

So long

2011-09-15T10:27:00.001+08:00

Hihi so long since I posted something . Juz got the blogger app on my phone so should be able to post frequently Le hehe miss ma

Do u noe

2011-06-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

Do you know what you had done , did not bring closeness however it back fired . Making me less wanting to be at home . What's the point of having a home when no one supports nor are to understand n accept who u are .
When coming back What you see are black faces . People who think world revolves only themselves .
Sad to say no one does understand me in the family that I am this way . Yes parents did give birth to us and had made us who we are today . It's irresponsible to say that my world do not just revolve within the family . But it's true my world do not just revolve in the family . Human r build to survive if they enjoy n feel safe and comfortable in some place definitely u will stay at that zone as much as possible.
While I know you think is nonsense n selfish . We have our own life to walk . We are different in thinking prospect n views . We cab share but can u try to understand be open . We can always revert back to sharing thing under the sun but the thing is will u see the thugs I share with a open mind .
Or before I speak u alrdy condam it . If that's the case we have nth to sure . N I will not feel like sharing

Emo

2011-05-01T03:05:00.001+08:00

Emo mo mo mo . Haizx ... Let it go n it will carry on . Said however not solved . Should not cold blanket however sensitive :( being Hunan is hard n never understanding . Mind reading needed

H

2011-03-10T22:43:00.001+08:00

Here I m feeling hurt yet thinking of u . If story where long told y did u even bother to flip open another .
Responsibilty do not bring happiness in the end both party will hurt most out of it .
Another unfruitful ending another lonely time . Maybe I m juz suitable to leave alone n for myself only . Time to forget love , frens n forever . How stupid I m to proof forever true love does exist .
Another time I told myself stop dreaming n wake up .

Sweet memories of bun n mun gd bye for now

HaiX

2011-03-10T21:04:00.001+08:00

Yet again another story has ended. Another empty promise n wish .
I m sick of all these alrdy .
I feel like wasting my life juz like this
HaiX happy times sure past fast.
Lai fe Cong Cong jui ye Cong cong

Fire n water

2011-02-19T04:07:00.001+08:00

Fire n water will they create ever lasting steam or will they kill off each other ? I wonder .

Late

2011-02-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Night mare I m so pissed ! Late by a step if I didn't slp n jus when there. Rather then Slp le den go all this preparation gone in 1 SMS .

不知不觉我哭了 not to dream any more .

Missing u

2011-02-18T04:31:00.001+08:00

Missing u :(
R u sleeping right now ?
R u well rested ?
Will tomorrow be a gd day ?
The urge of seeing u .
I have to stop this :(
Heaven u really to see me suffer

Happy

2011-02-17T12:11:00.001+08:00

Night mare I m happy happy at the moment . However I'm afraid at the same time . Wat if his not the chosen wan ? Wat if same thing happen again. Wat if this route is not wat he chose ? I m veri afraid to put in deeper feelings or to get closer . However I m enjoying to moments we r having as of now .
Do I have to put a guard on 2 parties haha . If let say we were to be .

I m afraid I m afraid plz do not let history repeats . Let this be the one n only one n no more . enjoy now n think later ba .

Take a step a time

Mei le di

2011-02-15T10:48:00.001+08:00

Ohaiyo :) valentine is over yet another one has pass next will b my b dae every yr as it passes I always wish for the same thing . Some one who is for plz appear n save me . Loneliness is gd however some time it does hurt .
I felt smth missing. We r always not satisfy with what we had n would wan better or more option or goodies n this lead to greed but is this a gd excuse ?

What is responsibility wats is faith ? What is trust ? What is love ? Day by day these impt morale is decaying n polluted like earth . Haixz r we really human ? Or we r degenerating day by day to be like animals ?

My topic jump to fast I guess haha xp if u cam catch up gd for u . If I can't I m sorry haha try to catch it as much as possible .

Haixz will this be another unfruitful year ?

Chapter 1

2011-01-27T09:45:00.001+08:00

Dear night mare . It has been so long , I have not have this feeling for such long time . Checking Hp for msg every min or sec to see whether did that someone reply to the msg or sent u even a text .

However wat a wishful thinking of me to think that anything will happen . I guess it will be crush or touch n go thing as nth will be possible after someone special is alrdy engage to someone special :)

Wat If we didn't met in such circumstances will there be a chance ? I hope so haha x let's see how it goes i dun wana be a third party or juz a one way love or same thing has happen 1 yr ago haha . Let hope for the best n wish for nth x.x dosent made sense I noe haha . Ohwell . Will u be the one ? I have long waited for ? Night o mare plz tell me plz >.<

Night mares

2011-01-06T08:49:00.001+08:00

It's getting bad x real bad ! I have been dreaming x yes dreaming x practically every time I slept pics if u is there or smth happen x plz someone get rid the images out of my mind x yes it was meant to be nothing but hey when I woke up it's like dam y m I having a dreamt of u at the first place x it's suppose to meant to be nothing no return no hope no future nothing further nothing at all x

It should not even happen in the first place after venturing on single hood for almost a year plus I shouldn't be thinking of u anymore no matter how sweet how bitter not a single bit should be remembered x I thought I m ok x n I should be ok x must be n nothing else x walk forward this road that I had chose more conviction more more I nid more to be more discipline x n many more x

New year resolution should I made 1 still there is a light for a special someone however when will it come ? Knocking on my door knocking on. Amour clad heart will it bring enough force or fire to bring it down ? Will it ever be down ? Oh I m being emo x black o sky hear my cries dripping gently frm thy eyes x

What have I achieve ? I m not sure ? Uncertain here I stand where is the light to guide me in this sea of uncertainty ? I looked for the fairy I looked for the star what will a star be when it fallen out of the sky n landed in to the cold sea ? Long forgotten once shone brightly x hoho what m I doing xp I m bored in the train I guess x haixz x

Sometimes I really wonder wat r humans made for x what is he tying to achieve when whoever ewe created us ? Living us dangling here n there x haixz x

Ahh I haixzed 2 times x I Juz wish everything will go smoothly as I planne plz ! For once ? Tyty

New life

2010-11-29T18:53:00.001+08:00

Hi all I got wat I wish for~ night shift ~ ftw haha hopefully I can save up frm now n leaving up to the expectation frm my new team :D
When u wish for smth n he gave u however u rejected it will he ever give u one that ur satisfy with ? Or will he stop giving u since he thinks that this would be the best in for u ?
I m not sure however sorry bw I had to reject u. There isn't any spark to start a fire. N didn't wan y to fall into too deep before anything could be done to amend. Yes it will be painful as I had gone through it before let anger be the energy n foundation for u to forget me. I will not mind as this might be the best solution .
I still dun noe wat I want in life yet. Someone told me dreams r dreams however there 2 kinds 1 is unrealistic ones n the other would be realistic ones. I told myself to proof these ppl wrong. But wat do I have to prove these ppl wrong ? No talent no capital wat can I do to prove them wrong? Or would I give up once again n vow down to reality ? I hope n wish that I can prove them wrong so that they can give chance to chase wat they really meant to dream to be.
It's the start of my bight shift I dun noe wat will happen I might get uglier or smth else worst come to worst no one can recognize me haha xp wish me luck peeps

Melody

2010-10-26T06:42:00.001+08:00

Ops haha didn't blog for last 2 days. Was busying wif family haha playing mj n stuff xp .
Currently on train to go home today super late but I make clients super happy today at the expense of using too much of my time haha xD .
Nth special last weekend haha except fam boding n I won 25 plus buck in mj n lost 17 on Sunday xp at least I earn la lolx.

This Thurs Gona visit the changi terminal hoho can't wait xD.

Melody

2010-10-21T20:03:00.002+08:00

I think I shouldnt call these chapter or books as it is, as this is the eden of melody I shall name all my exp as musical as possible haha, let say new song? verse? haha i dun noe let me see what i name it as it goes, first let me introduce my penpal melody something who will always read wat i write haha.. or shall i say bo bian his created to read my things lol..

***************************NEW WORLD************************

Any way this is my new song, its call New World, I cant get any thing new or original so oh well, I will try to write to melody as often as possible i say orh try only ^.^,
Here it goes some might ask y such decision? My trainer ms J will always play or show us some encouragement spiritual or should i say positive sentence or quotes for us to read n relax or mind to prepare for the lesson. When i was reading it, one of the slide caught my eyes n here its written;

Flatter me and I may not Believe you,
Criticize me and I may not Like you,
Ignore me and I may not Forgive you,
Encourage me and I may not Forget you.

and

Courage does not always ROAR,
Sometimes it is a small quiet voice at the end of the day says
I will try again tomorrow.

I said 1 right and I wrote 2 >.< I copied down haha and she told us a story,
abt being positive every min or sec we had 2 choices to make be positive and stay happy or negative and grumble. and a few stories abt think positive.

I really enjoyed her lesson every time as she always will inspire us haha
n she is veri knowledgeable telling us her exp in life.haha
yea inspired and I think back, and when came to my senses snap snap*
It time to put a . it should have been done long ago, and it might leave swt memories
swt.

I m trying hard to stay happy and moving forward step by step, at least each time it doesnt hurt as much as previous. learn from mistakes and experience. and hope and live for the better of tomorrow. treasure present plan for future. It does really take 2 hands to clap, if the other hand doesnt response the other hand keep clapping it will not make a perfect synchronize sound.
Only in darkness then can we see stars shining brightly.

130

2010-10-21T19:34:00.002+08:00

Dear jack dairy, I know that i will be juz like this chap the char contradicting, I will but a full stop on this book now ba, dun think if i carry on with this book, there will not be a happy ending or worst no ending the story. I would like to open a new book n rewrite my char, Its abit sad or ke xi to close this book now however i learnt quite alot of things from this current book, lesson learnt shall be remembered n not forget n do it again. A new book it shall be, Let me but this book back to the shelf.

129

2010-10-20T06:38:00.002+08:00

i really dun understand y to u have to hurt urself once again in an dead end.
n y do i have to keep hurting myself when i noe it will have no happy endings.
2 different ppl 2 different ideology 2 different personalties 2 different beliefs.
when will ur feelings be stable for 1 person. when will u not be sicken by a person,
when will u ever find the right wan. y keep lieing to urself, y keep using ur words to shoot urself. y do u wan to go through all these silly thing n end up getting hurt,

why m i not that perfect enough, y had all my effort thrown away, y do i always get these kind of things. how ever u can do freely wat u wan. even u said frens. does a fren not reply to any texts does a frenly speak to u so coldly..
haixz wold it be 3 months? 2 months or another 9 months 5 or 7 before i heard another not chasing anymore somthing came n lighten up my heart i m filled with love now.. can u sstop all these for a while n reconstruct ur feelings before u jump into another wan again. will u die if for once ur not attached? arent u typical with the rest of the ppl u desipesd so much before. feel free to defend urself, as wat u say might juz be another contradiction that might be creating.

or had i said too much? haixz i dun noe really, keep telling my self to give up but my heart juz owuldnt its stil bleeding. n i wouldnt bow down so easily. fo rwat i had love n treasure the most.

Dk

2010-10-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

Here I m trying hard n there u go again. Must we always come down to this.
Can u at least open up alittle. Have u ever wonder y it didn't work out ? Have u ? I keep trying veri hard, compose giving learning absorbing not that i said tat u dun , dun quote me or pick any bones that u see.
Can u at least give a little thought 1 veri small one. Ten yrs down the road r u still gona be like that.

why

2010-10-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

why dun i even dare to tell ice off why dun i juz tell ice off,
i m such a coward stupid stupid this is stupid.. i m angry with myself for
being such a coward. what the stupid fuck m i waiiting for?? for this kind of persoN?
U sure he even really love u at all.. wtf is tis.. I dun noe where i can trasnfer my anger too. i really dun noe .. I m so sick of everything... this is really stupid, stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.. I m sick n tired of this shit...
stop playing n toying with me. i had enough of u.

En e

2010-10-15T19:05:00.001+08:00

Neh jack I really feel like shouting enough is enough How long will be this over. Want or dun want attitude. Have or dun have also nvm attitude this is sickening . Trying so hard for wat ? It's like I m such a sucker. N I had repeated this for so many times until me myself is sick of myself repeating. Lalala if wan attitude den so be it. I Noe I wouldn't regret , should ha learnt from sha sha be firm so go n die fuck u n slam phone. If only my heart is not that soft.

no point

2010-10-15T06:13:00.002+08:00

Neh jack san, i did smth stupid, being so bhb, went to ask smth n got myself irritated instead, dun think i should start any conversation anymore. hate it when i m talking to a block of ice, human can really change as n when they like... this totally sux... not a little regretful, remorsefull nor sorry. oh well what there to be sorry abt i noe wat i m getting into.. haha this dumb..
wat a mistake to even ask.. haixz... ashes to ashes dust to dust let it be there n then. lesson learnt u can always be such a jerk n ass lol. n why m i falling for u haha.. my iq should be lower then 0 i guess. yea i m such a retard jack san.
guess i should avoid hurting myself so much...
even had this block of ice apologize i guess i will still not forgive ba since the previous ones i had not anyway. as i say what there to apologize when ur in such a state? haha apologize when the time comes ba. lets say even if there is.
jack jack each time such things happen. it dmges the feeling n love, i dun want these feelings to be continued dmg or flow away. protecting it from being sucked away.
maybe maybe juz 1 day i would throw it away, when the times come. for now i would juz safe keep in a place. this time not gona be athird party nor a spare tire any more..
let 131010 be the last of it.
jack jack i will end now.
signing off bun bun.

cried

2010-10-14T20:27:00.003+08:00

neh jack dairy,

i cried today finally after holding back so long, on the way my father fetch me i cried in his car... i m suprise with myself that i cried in the car infront of my dad n sis haha.. everything juz suddenly tightens in my heart, bad day with bad customer, bad day with sis, everything* juz fall in place nicely haha.. at last i couldnt hold it anymore.
i cried.. not a found came juz tears rolling one after another...

haha told myself to me strong though i was thinking y these stuff happen to me?
n not to other ppL? y being a human as the rest they can be more cheerfull n blissed?
cause i keep comparing? cause i deserve this? haha tried hard to think positive that ppl r mor eunluck y then me. i should be happy with wat i m now..

keep remind myself not to be attached with my customer.. if time to use the axe, use it bluntly.. but hey who ever is on the phone today. i tried my best n i really hope u can open ur ears n use some common sense to understand the concept before acting all so high n mighty n when u dun get wat u wan u write in a feedback.. ur the biggest sore loser i eva seen.. scars all u want as i m juz doing my job realying msg n bring down de axe to u such ppl. ur topic is not even related to cs so y bring in css haha.. i pity u :)

at least i learn a lesson from u, to be more firm n hush to u such ppl. kena be training my firmness when i speak to such ppl XP . i love n hate this jib at the same time. love it when ther r gd customer who is understanding n lovely, hate it when customer always think they r rite n they can do wat eva they want. plz rmbr if i weer to open a biz i would rather spent more time with happy customer den spending my time with ugly customer. who will u keep if u have a biz?i m not losing anything as ur behaviour is like that i guess wat ever tall tale u say abt the company ppl would juz be like come on thats u where ever u go it bound to happen so complaint for wat.. action speaks louder den words :)

n n n jack next week i can go back theory trng le.. rest time from answering calls hehe.. but sadly enough after that we cannot set cb mgmt for our customer le have to face it n answer ourself >.< dam rite. hahaha .
PPl out there if ur reading this I would like to have band mbrs i m intrested in cre8ing a band.. Sadly thought i can only do vocal xp plz contact me if theres is any opening or auditions XP. tyty juz tryin gout my luck in here though.

signing off bunbun o@,@o

Y?

2010-10-14T07:09:00.001+08:00

How do I came abt this decision?
It was when i saw de love for the other is stronger den mine. It juz hit my head that hey I m not that impt any more not really in the heart , purge out for gd, the action coldness, feeling. It will be dissolve sooner or later.
The thought of Y wait till the roots gets deeper n got it pluck out by force when that day come wouldn't it be more hurtfull den now?
I m scared of being Hurt alrdy. N yes I might be sick n tired of his game seriously who wouldn't.
Count me dumb or blind for not listening. I thought it is not that way, however it proves otherwise. Grievness anger sadness how should I divert this feelings away. When in work I m happy entertaining customer lol n stuff like that. But when reaching home it's another story introvert n silence I dun feel like saying anything anymore . As I believe I ha said many things before does it help? :) nope I guess it will not ever get through. Dun ask whether will I be still waiting when the times comes u will Noe. Wats much to say when u can't even control or decide. Hopefully there will not be any regrets for any of my decision ba, if there is I shall live by it. What can I do when it takes 2 hand to clap how ever I m clapping b what is the other hand doing :) always saying this n doing another, many mask that ur wearing on?

Weird

2010-10-13T19:52:00.001+08:00

This is veri weird, it's de 3rd time n I still feel so veri hurt n empty. plz plz do not torture mr yet again. I m tryin hard to absorb in yea I m tryin hurt give me str n will to forget everything let there be no scar to remember no memories to think abt let there be nth plz. I do not want to go through it again. It's de 3rd time yet it still so deep. X(

pissedq

2010-10-12T20:04:00.003+08:00

I dun noe y i m writing this, hopefully it could serve as a reminder to me.
Stop believing n dreaming for smth which has passed u.
have dignity in life, steadfast on ur decision or u will jzu be played around in ppl hands. no matter rs, work etc anything everything under de sun..

wish me better luck next time. gd bye melody rose.

Lies

2010-10-10T02:40:00.001+08:00

Yes u can say anything under de sun as u want. In the end u fall back to the original state. When will u really grow up ?
Stop giving excuses n running away. Do I nid such a person ? Do u really wan such a person I think I have to revalidate abt it. I should have my own dignity . Sick n tired if Childs play.
Gd bye .

Oneday

2010-10-07T06:43:00.001+08:00

Maybe few months to pass I would say hey look here I had enough . Y would wan to bring such stress n unnecessary misfortune, pain, worrisome to ur love ones I dun understand .
Yes it might be economical but hey I dun think ur life would cost so little too.
Haizx

Karma

2010-09-07T23:46:00.001+08:00

Can I say this is due to karma? What I had did had bounce back to me?

I hope that I have enough endurance n patience to go through this.

Haizx mmmm is it how I think or how I see things differently from everybody ?

I wish to understand u more

2010-09-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

I really wish that u will share ur thoughts n feelings with me. Will this moment end some time later ?

On my way

2010-08-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

Haha this is weird , now on the way I m going to meet u. Sitting on the train listening to my i phone suddenly I felt like crying.
Dun Noe y but maybe I had been too stretch out haha my fam by work n by u now work is down I only can hope that my next work place will be full of fun,
Fam I m stress with money issues in my fam, when then can I earn enough money to further study n pass my driving test ? Haixz thinking abt these I m really stressed out. Seeing my batch of frens getting thier diploma n going to Ns work or degree n here I am still with my o lvl wat had I achieve ?
Maybe 1 day my head will stop thinking atop worrying n stressing myself I need to do something but wat should I be doing ?
When I m with u I dun Noe wat should I do wat should I not? I m afraid that I small mistake I would out from ur live once again n this might be the last struggle or chapter. I have a very big feeling that once if we r gona step out of each other live again we will not be together agin n ever again. This seems to be the last chapter of an ending story will it be good will it be bad I dun Noe but this big hunch I m getting it doesn't seems to be a good wan.

Who ever is up there be it jesus, zesus, alah, Buddha, goddess, fairy, witches, plz stop giving me obsticals one after another. It's tiring, I can't see what is a head of anymore everything Is foggy, where will I be heading too ?

Loves lots,
Loveless

difference

2010-08-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

I can see a difference, I can sense the difference too.
will I get used to it?? It is something cold, voidness, far.
thats what i can describe. I dun wan such u.. is so not the u I knew.
I think thats y ppl say do not eat back the old patch of grass, cause its
never gona be the same, n u will suffer more in the process i guess.

halve-ly I m numb, Half of my heart is dead n gone, that part of the heart cant
feel anything as for now, its trying to protect the whole heart to be hurt.
the other part? it is trying to understand, analyzing, thinking, feeling.
Healing, adapting, fighting.

I m gona cruise this week, How I hope that I can go with someone that I could share the time the joy the happiness.

Boon ask me this qn Y dun find another one? Y juz sitting down here n wait for a rabbit to hit on u? hahaha, Wat can I say I only believe in 1 love if that love is gone, I think it would be hard for me to get another. Non changing heart, non openess, I believe in my words Once I say I only love u n i truly love u, den I think the rest f life my heart is with u le, I believe in that I m like the rest, who can say I only love u madly in love with u cant live with out u n stuff and a turn of an eye they r with someone else haha.. this ppl really sucks. They juz destroy the meaning of foreverness n love.

The next big qn! Y name urself as Loveless? Y call ur self loveless so bad.
While my love is gone, therefore I m loveless currently, My love for other ppl has gone. It has been taken away. personally I dun feel any love from anyone right now, someone who treat me good is either they want somethign from me in the end, or it will be an exchange for another thing, not really love I guess.

Responsibilities if a rs turn to a sort of responsibilities to carry on, den it will not bring any paradise, I have seen 2 eg. non went well, Crucially following the heart is more impt. I always follow my heart to do things n that is y maybe I always ended up hurting myself or burning myself up...

Juz bo liaoness i think to much time I have n trying not to think

coward

2010-08-21T00:03:00.003+08:00

I m such a coward, Couldnt say anything anything from my heart..
I nid to think for everyone everyone!! but who will think for me.
who? let me think If i m gona post this out I m sure gona be quarreling with him again.
But I dun noe I juz wana let it all out.. U ask me to think before i type out..
had u even thought of my feelings if i gona read that post.

lolx y alway si m the wan at fault.. n should be reflecting .
y do i always bend my ways to give wat u want wat u say..
n u can enjoy everything wif juz ur words..

sure will be a quarrel if u see this. I will not retaliate anymore..
do wat u wan wat u like, I will answer accordingly I m human not juz u n ur favorites
How many times m i going to get this.. I dun think i deserve this anymore..

being loyal being open being adaptable to ur liking,..
i dun even noe who m i or who m i doing this for!
r u the one i knew from the start...

I dun wan a fight. i dun wana struggle.
I dun noe what Should I do..
I hate this I hate everything..
Y didnt i died when I should had..
Y save me.
T,T what significant do i hold..
i m nothing but a wanderer dreamer.
dreams that will never be fulfilled no matter how hard i try.
life really isnt fair it is too unfair..

Everytime I tell my self I m stilll young I m still young
follow ur planning n everything will be alright..
and evertime something will obstruct. obstruct everything that i planned.
after climbing over those obstructions i found that there is no more energy left to
carry on.. I m tired perhaps tired of life everything..

nothing is right. Juz let me die if i m not suppose to live. whats the purpose for keeping me alife.. what did i did to deserve this..

This is so crap M like a manic screaming crying( screaming? inside my heart) crying ya tears r rolling down.. Think I should stop this..
depressing

Haixz. Hope everything good for you.
I will juz be around or not.. I m not sure..
Wake me up when we r back to 24042009

Should I?

2010-08-20T10:08:00.001+08:00

Should I walk of it again? Can any1 tell me? Should I or should not I? It doesn't feel right or seem right. Haizx

Milo

2010-08-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

I suddenly have de urge to drink milo haha..
and after I drank guess what X.X I read something..

O well hahax Nature ba~ I m like the milo residue after you drink all the goodies from a milo, there will always be a residue sticking on to the cup never letting it go unless u use soup to wash it away haha~ n who will go lick up the residue de leh..

Nvm this is confusing for some ppl~ Hahaha I m juz sticking around every now n then.
will be was away easily wif soap thats what I am~ Meiyoushenfenderenmeiyouren huidongderenwozhibuguoshiyigemeijiazhideren.

Shouldnt look back when it is not clear shouldnt step out when the road ahead is black
y do i like to hurt myself so much for you.

I m silly to never stop sticking around silly to never stop myself.

You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter. How can it not matter to you where the train will take you?
Because we'll be together.

Thinking

2010-08-08T22:20:00.001+08:00

Thinking - currently I m at east coast park with my fam how I wish u where here ! But I have no news of u since yesterday not a SMS after u ask me not to SMS u as u will be wif him that night SMS u de next morning instead , If his not impt I will not even not receive n SMS after that as the next day I dun dare to SMS u as I dun even Noe whether ur still wif him a not... Would like to call u to check things out but will I be interrupting? Will u pick up the call ? I had pic lot of things u will do with him , guess it's natural . Should I even be there to be a third party this time I'm 1 .. N the things he did would I ever forgive ? Will I trust him again ? Will I ? Will I ? So many will I . But the main person is him will he ?

You noe ma this is the second tome u told me that if the day comes I will love u even more. But will the day comes? Will we ever have that day ?? I m really scared . Everytime when there is hope I believe n trust it dearly but u will shatter it again n again like nth . Triumph on wat I dearly hoped n believe n what do I gain ?? ( *｀ω´) . It's like wat I hoped n believe for were nth to u . U can get another 1 anyway. Haizx I m so useless always being emotional when it comes to u . I shouldn't be involve in this I guess. Will I ever lost the steam to hope n believe .

Wat to do

2010-08-02T22:19:00.001+08:00

I dun Noe wat to do now . I really dun this feeling sucks .. It really burns my heart.. Should I be angry or should I be happy . y the person is not me n yet another person how Many times must I get hurt before ur happy.

How many more times can I stand up to this kind of things n face this kinds of things . I can wait silently for nothing without noeing wats going on . But if it is u how will u react ? I really dun Noe lol . I m pissed sad angered . I dun wan any shouting n shooting any more. I have to think straight got any body as dumb as me doing these kind of things ??? Is this call blinded by love or plain dumb or love.. I thought i would never cry cause of u le but it juz happen again .. What is this tell me what is this . U rather find the answer with another person n not me . Each n everyone is different thus answer might suite this person but it might not suite the other . If it's over plz juz say it's over dun let it linger around n making feel like so dumb...

This is stupid should I hate or should I love who will understand this feeling that I have ,. I really hate u when u do this to me please make this the last or let there be a ending I dun wan to this this every other month .. I will go insane . Stop giving me excuses .. U believe his ur forever n u give me up n now his not ur forever n another 1 came I m Juz replacement ? I dun feel like doing these anymore .. T.T

Miss

2010-08-02T08:35:00.001+08:00

How can I say I miss u? N be open to u??
I dun noe... I dun feel like moving at all..
since everything is not ended.. and it might be a 1 sided
thing again.. time plz pass faster so that this period would
juz be gone with another flash..

mmm _l_

2010-07-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

Mmmm...Should I or should I not? I keep asking this qn for these few days.
what if its juz another temperament of his? I want to be in the lead role and not the side kicks. mmm I dun noe haixz.. thought all these had gone to the past.. at least for him.. n now... Ahhh Plz save me~ I dun wana think anymore.. If his sincere dun think it will be juz a 1 day thing right... Mmm will not put my hope up for this time.. Its juz impossible for now... after so many things happened I dun feel like being toyed or hurt again.. It might only be possible if his single... haixz. who ever is up there your not being fair to me.. stop making my life miserable.. I m miserable enough alrdy.. _l_

why?

2010-07-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

hmmm. I think it has been 4 to 5 months le.. but i m still missing that person..
weird isnt.. I was not gona name the person name again de... but I sent the email on that day now den I got a reply... all these while this person presence has not been gone. Maybe if that person didnt replied that email I wouldnt had post this...

Haixz.. convictions. I really wish I had a stronger wan haha. Maybe I m too soft hearted le ba.. But I really do wish that we can go back to the day we first met..
silly n childish us... but at the same time fun n happy...

when ever i think back the small little things we did Its sweet yet sad haha once thought that have these memories got wat use? the other person has alrdy threw it away le.. n never will the person be back.. stay quiet for a month..seems to be a long time.. but this time makes me realizes that I dun really wan another person in my life now.. its juz too messy n complicated.. Couldn't let go is another problem.. juz dun wan problems to multiply ba..

Haixz Its complicated~ hopefully everything will settle down... soon or slowly...
maybe u could take this 2 years to think carefully r proper.. 2 years is not a long wait for me.. since I m not seeking anything now other then money n education.. everyhting else can wait for the moment..

Wondering

2010-07-15T07:32:00.001+08:00

I am really wondering y can't she be more understanding n more giving n loving . WTF does she wants , y can't she jux look at herself n actions before being so hysterical abt it . There is a crisis we r here to solve it n not creating more prob . I dun Noe how she thinks.. N for side lines those who dun wana help, dun say so much since u only hear 1 side of the story only. really wana help? den be present there when we r solving it... Haizx at work need solve prob at home also nid...

Should I stay in these company ? I can't do my own things as there is no free time for me working at work even at home still working. Blog also have to blog on the way to work haizx de only thong holding me back is money prob in fam. Haizx.. Really !!! Grow up plz.. U guys r no longer kids.

Sadness

2010-07-13T07:52:00.001+08:00

Hi peeps long time no post . Currently alot of things has happened to my life. Maybe it is a every human life Thingy but I dun understand shouldn't 2 ppl who r tied down should have mutual understanding n to have eternal love? It seems to state otherwise for the present era divorcing is like a norm. Really didn't think that this kind of drama would happen when u didn't exp . Really dun understand will they quarrel when their grave r put side to side . R children born to carry this kind of burdens? So what if babies r cute n stuff they r born to carry this kind of burden ? Suddenly this hit my mind being single is better den being "attached" u spend ur own money u save ur own money no body will nag at u for not bringing money home, not enough money, not leading a gd life wif u, u suck n stuff, dun have to face delima on hey I dun even enjoy wif the money I earn it is all spent on u n family. Seeing parents not able to manage a family they set up from the beginning it is really a heart pain, being sandwiched by both of them is not an easy task I felt sorry for my Sis . I Also dun even Noe what I m ranting abt, but it is not easy to solve fam prob at hand ? Y can't I hate them like some ppl do~ haizx what is the meaning of life ?

we shall see

2010-06-24T07:52:00.004+08:00

I would like to see the future..
what it holds what its the ending for different ppl life.
will it be sad happy agony depress regretful pathetic.

N I would like to see certain person Ending..
It will be amusing to see what will it end up with...

And we shall see who is calling thief when its the thief..

Why dont it look at itself first..

drama? lolx plain idiotic.. get some sense rite plz..

trying to save own rs? lolx.. deleting blocking in the name of useless?
or trying to save own ass from being found out lolx..

why m i wasting my breath here yapping on this topic..
haha I has a great laugh when I saw it pathetic pathetic..

wonder when ppl will see that mask tore out from ur face..
keep acting n hiding. truth will never be gone..

lol

2010-06-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

I cant believe I m tearing while blogging...
But i really dun noe where to vent this feeling at...
Y m I tearing for such a person...
hurt me so deeply for so many times...
N still can ask y blame on that person..
wtf your not in wrong yes u totally r not...
wat fucking nonsense is this lol...
fucking shit... y i m i wishing n believing in
such a person wtf is this... this totally nonsensical..

Hear I m complain n crying my hearts out..
And there ur flirting .. after awhile u will have no
feeling again ... U such a cheat... n flirt .. what nonsense

fucking ccb knn Yes I am angry n pissed now..
FUCK U dick head... all ur words r nothing but lie from
the very start.. ur love is such a play thing...

n stupid me believing in everything u ever said this is stupid..
fucking stupid.. No more of this nonsense .. no more good words
no more... the impression of u had changed deeply ...

Haixz this is I dun noe.. I dun noe wat I m gona do alrdy...
2 times it happens 2 times.. n 2 times its always de same...
saying things with out a thought really grow up alrdy...
_l_

101

2010-06-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

*14 song plays*
have been busy lately with work~
MM I can stand the pressure the stress
but not the ppl ba..

Lazy bitchy sluts 2 headed snakes boot licker back stabber
u name we have it. is common in a office ba

Today something hit me in my thoughts..
I wanted to say it out but do not how to express nor disturb..
y does I have to harp on old topic? I not fair cheated lost.
or plain stupid u name i have it..

Y cant I carry on wif my norm life? find another lover or something
I dun noe.. Its juz doesnt feel rite. I cant move or be moved?
its weird I m like bluffing myself to move but inside its not moving at all..

so u truly seriously loved me? I dun noe cant judge? but u seem to be
moving along juz fine forget abt the love de watevers i m not loving u
lolx while i dun noe look at it now. who is not loving hu? lolx..

I dun noe these stupid thoughts juz came in to me n it makes me pissed..
after thinking yea true wat is all these promises n love that J proclaimed?
lol but not trying to provoke anything ... I m alrite if this post is gona get bone picked. I m alrite what have i not gone through? lolx Yea..

its a surprise that I ms till here alive.... after what has gone into my life
as for now.. maybe this is life? Face it n walk forward..
what cant be taken back cant be taken back anymore.. if its meant to be
it meant to be.. regrets never ends sadness anger doesnt stops..

let it sing till one day it dies.. how to heal a heart that has broken into
fine little powder how do u heal it? or how m i going to heal it..

how to save a living thing when all he thinks is nothing..

Ah I dun noe.. when i will be alive again n carry on walking..
when will these thing stop when will i stop thinking of u...
when we everything ends...
Do I wan it to stop?
lolx I m suppose to be there u forever.. I dun wana be alone again..

left out in the cold dark room is lonely..
yes it is cold n lonely..

*loves story plays*

haha so long no post le n here i m being all emo again..
but really after ur gone its juz emoing everyday haha..
but hu cares blog r history so am I ..
but my presences have been a void..
a void in time a void in history..

100th Post

2010-06-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

This is my 100th post....

M i still living in my shadows my past..
Nothing seems to be moving forward..
nothing seems to change...

Except time has been flowing by passing me day
by day wat shock me today was how ugly i had became..
The day of youth has gone..

While trying out shirt I look at the mirror which I always
dun really dare to look at.. I see how I had age so much
in such a short time.. My appearance keep changing..
but the inside? its still de same..
Y dun I have de motivation to change a better me..
a better life style a healthier choice??

Leave me pondering n wondering What had gone wrong?
excuses? lazy? N many more..
when will i be that imagined me?
Haha its a tough road to go...
but I m still trying hard..
everyone seems to grow pretty n better.
n i m withering instead of growing..

sweet days r over.. let me face de sunny days.
So long my rainy days... Sun juz pierced my eyes
n skin... Sleeps doesn't seems to be helping me
being more energetic i m growing old?

Let me die in peace in my dreams ..
Plz I dun wan to wake up anymore...

2010-05-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

This song is dedicated for u~

Would you dance,
If I asked you to dance?
Would you run,
And never look back?
Would you cry,
If you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,
If I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die,
For the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,
That youll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
Would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.
I just wanna to hold you.
Oh yeah.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I dont care...
Youre here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

used

2010-05-24T21:21:00.004+08:00

why do i feel used when ever it happens not once but twice...
Its always de same, the same thing over n over again..
when will this cursed fate-circle-breaks..

Thinking back again does promises-oath-stuff like that exist?
-dreams-forever-nevertoletgo- true?

Heard it times n times again the same promises oath longer then this n tat.
but sadly in the end it ended up nothing but crap pouring out from "love"
yes it the same mouth to pour out oath-sweetwords- never de less breaking of oath is by the same mouth too poison is also from that very mouth...

How many times had I heard this is not fair to u or for u...
if u noe its not fair den y do u even do things thats unfair..

Oaths n promises plz mean it n follow it through if dun. dun even say it...
its juz reflect how you are...

mmmm... my arrows not pointing to anyone.. but if u think u had been shot..
I wouldnt say i m sorry ur guilty for feeling that way ^^ so..
be guilty forever my darlings.. maybe except for a hand full of ppl
I m sorry ^^ nope is not u ok ;p

I wonder whats the future lay ahead for me .. will i suffer in jealousy pain or
happy n bliss. mmm if life was a game where u can save n go back to the place u saved
n play again to get different ending how good it is...

Maybe should get some forget powder from tooth fairy haha...
it would be great fucking forget who u r bitch POOF
Who m i? Your a fucking dirty whore leak the pile of shit now.. beetch!!!!

Lolx too over wahahahha...

ops ....

Plz be a better day to come X3

used

2010-05-24T21:21:00.001+08:00

mm

2010-04-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

Plz ignored the underneath rants if u dun wana be pissed:)

Mmm whats de point somebody asked.

Its simple every day say sweet little things to ur love one
before u regret when they r gone. Everyone would appreciate
small little gesture of being wanted. u have a mouth a hand
there for something, there r Ppl who cant speak and who really
like to voice their love n sweet little thoughts. and u
have it but u dun wan use it? de point is simple every
single sweet little thought n talks adds to a million
strong bond. bonds/rs with no communications breaks
as easily as hair. Let these sweet little thing be a chop stick
added up more its harder to break with out it a single push
its gone so wat if u have trust alone?
yes a rs needs trust but trust is not the single element to
a long last rs/ bond ba...

Haixz dun understand y humans can dun understand how they are
feeling is so funny. likes means like dun like means dun like.
Ur dun noes r making me insecure its making me floating around
like thin air ( nothing).I m such a nobody, it seems that m life
is suppose to be like that when ppl needs me i m there when dun
need i m pushed a side.. where is my priority? where do i stand?
M i so not needed in this world.. haixz.. Stupid life. when will
i be so needed in someones life except for my family... haixz..
when will it come?

Above mentioned items had been on my head for too long..
juz wana release some air.

Dyd

2010-04-21T20:40:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyooyooy mina san although I dun noe
who is still following through my road of
memories X3 I have a news. I think I did the
craziest thing ever I highlight my hair to
VIOLET RED lolx COOL yea~

Hey but I kinda like it u noe hehehe.
Mmm ohya I might be from part time become
full time orh wish me lucks k hahaha...

Trying to be happy when each days pass by
with out u~ X3

Beloved

2010-04-15T20:38:00.003+08:00

I dun noe wat should I be feeling haha..
Hate? angry? Happy? all in all the person who
cant decide who to love.. was him.. in the
end I made d decision for him so that he could
rest his head n mind n soul. wat do i get next?
Cursed swear n hatred ...

I guess I should be happy ba... Since his doing fine
I m alrite wif all the words poems u want to throw
at me, all is fine, its juz how it happen love me
in a sec hate me another, close with me an sec
far away again de other.. carry wif that circle
ur life will not change.. it will still go round
n round.. But doesnt love work wonders? It makes u
hate someone as easily as it tkae u to fall in love wif someone..
1 day to fall in love 6 days to curse n swear haha.

Hate me all u want cause I cant say I dun really
care for I m not made of steel, Wat make me
move forward with my decision is how u acted..
Stop swearing n cursing as it will juz get right
back at u IN DOUBLE..

Wat I really want to noe is wat will happen to
each of our future did I chose de correct path.
or did u chose the correct path.
who will be in bliss who will be in regrets n sorrow.
I really do not noe but I hope neither of us will ba..
wats the point of making each other hurt even
at the end oif time?

I dun noe I dun even noe my future is bright or dark
now Juz walking step by step till the day I can
confirm it... By that day hopefully someone
who really belongs to me is there with me
looking that future with me.. haha..

Wat is forever? I dun noe I had not touched it before
so dun ask me. ^^ Bless everyone with lots of sweet n
good things chasing u <3

BibIBoBo

2010-04-12T20:18:00.002+08:00

Shalala Mina San~

So many things happening in one shot haha..

Mmm I m happy n glad... for everything that is

happening around me,,,

Finally receive my check today, My first pay

for 2010 >.<>

for 2 months haha.X3

Yea yea My pay my pay i m so happy..

Another thing is I want to thank Bi~

for supporting me n guiding helping me

through these dark days hehe...

thank you orh I promise I will not do that to

u le so dun worries ok... I really hope we could see

forever together n not juz say for show only ^^

Hopefully everything will be smooth sailing...

stop being lazy or bi....

Dun walk to fast n front n leave me behind is

scary to walk alone. its lonely too..

Lets work in rhythm n gusto...

Bibi Is the besty hehe ... I love bibi Muackxz~

Sweet Sweet

2010-04-01T19:37:00.002+08:00

Harlow everyone hehe long time no post le.
X3 must be wondering wat i m doing rite..
U will noe if u read on hahahaha..

Standing here as a fren I dun noe whther I should
talk to u or give u a frenly helping hand..
But I dun think I will be needed ba, I didnt
chose for u, U chose it urself. Maybe I had been
reading too much into a sentence, if it is plz
ignore this.

Cant wait for 10 april 2010, gonna feast on
dim sum with est n cy hopefully bi will be
there >.< hehehe.

I have been busying with B this few days hehe.
MMmm all the while when I m with B, everything
turns nth my shoulder feels lighter head
feels lighter too all stress n unhappiness juz
disappear haha.. Happy that B had found me..
I dun wan anything to be going wrong for me le..
Hopefully B is the one my forever hehe..
The official date? 310110 haha I wonder how to
count lo B ask me not to count by month,
count by years haha..

Bi I scared this sweetness over a long run
will turn dull >.< I dun wish that to happen.
Plz dun let it happen orh..
N bibi always have alot of weird happenings
popping out the lo >.< But I m happy that
ur honest with me X3 hehe

BiBi

2010-03-31T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hehehe happy to noe bi ..
Bring in colors in my life
N happiness. dun wish history
to reappear therefore I will
cherish this rs ^^
Hope u will too orh bi hehe

Wonders what r u thinking when
u always look into my eye hehe..
Ur hands r firm n big.. >.<
Mmmm Missing u alrdy X3

Nite nite SnoreszzzzzZzZ

Play

2010-03-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

Hi all, hahaha So long no post le
wariwari hehe.. I think hor
Fate is playing with me again leh T.T

Mmm ya lo I think fate is playing with
me yet again haha.. 2 route to chose..
left or right no middle road..
N i dun even noe how those the end will
look like >.<

2 different person but y do they seems so
similar in so many ways haha...
Dun noe leh Y all ur traits so similar???
Y? haha I really m scared n dun noe haha...
Which path to chose neh...

I noe ur different but ur so similar in so many
ways >.< sorry to compare u wtih him ..
it juz wouldnt go away from my mind haha..
Make mes worry too...

But I think times r good ba U have ur own
traits too ofcourse..
Which direction to face n walk?
haha Let fate chose n decide, So tired
on chosing or fighting against fate le..
U wana play den play ba si FATE!

Lalal

2010-03-20T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hi all, aha some small updates,

Went to celeb with JY b dae at yuki yaki.
haha When I m there It juz reminds me of
de person n esther n me eating there haha.
Bring back memories >.<

Hope Jy like the mini celeb although
abit fail whenhr is bring in the cake.
n Jar The 2 haded snake lolx..

Today when to dian diao my hand de mole.
Its a WOW experience is pain de lo kns
De lady still tell me yi dian dian only..
dian ur head lo even noe is still so painfull
like bees stinging it.. the worst is
I cant touch water with that hand anymore
lolx.. must wait till its recovered hopefully
my life will change from now onwards ba.

so many twist n turns, ups n downs,
its time for me to rest n settle down le
ba I m kinda tired le exhaust n drained..
Concentrate on work n studies is more impt
ba when things come along den come lo..
one by one crossing the obstacle place
infront of me. it seems so yesterday haha.
Going back to square 1 lolx.

Mmm looking towards today k box..
but i think something cock up lolx.
so ya lolx See how ba

The End

2010-03-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I M not going to post
anything related to de person in
here anymore. I guess I gonna lock it
somewhere else. As I noe de person will
be here reading haha..

So ya I gonna lock it up n keep it somewhere.

- Bad day I guess yet again.
- Comes fast go fast.
- Cant wait for thurs yuki yaki
- Est plz Confirm ur shows so I can make a date lolx.
- Swim was fun to bad that hr not there.

Oh ya I gonna kill HR lo mess up whole thing.
Gona torture him when I see him..

Oh ya I gonna post my weight here every weekly.
Cause my mum finally bought a weighing machine.
So y not use it haha motivate me to slim down ^^

Chaoz Good Nitez.

Contemplating

2010-03-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

Hi Peeps,
Mmm I m veri happy. haha
But Dun noe should I even be happy
abt it.. Inside me Was a spark
therefore I think I should be haha.

Tomorrow going to work le its 3 weeks.
omg dao~ lolx 1 more week n I will have my
pay. How I hope I can be a perm lolx.

- I had been always doing that without being told.

I will always believe that mine Beautified S-i-
is de one n only one in this world haha.

Wateva it is I will support n be around for
mine Beautified S-i-.

Today I think I ate too much.. Maybe I was too happy
haha n didnt control >.< omine! Guess is apple for lunch
for tomorrow hehe.

-To be fat or not to be?
-To be with or not to be?
-To pursue or not to be?
-To be happy or not to be?
-To be pissed or not to be?

The must funny thing is fate had been playing with me.
Y do I deserve this? What had I done wrong?
What is my purpose in this world?
Its amusing truly amusing. Wat a small world indeed.
I guess I shouldnt had believe anything anymore.
Or maybe take a longer time to noe that person or info.
Let nature takes its cause. Its kinda scary to think abt it.

hmmm... I guess I shouldnt be thinking of this le..
I will juz be happy shalalla. if it happens it happens.
I will give my full support when the day comes.
When the knight reached out for my hand...

Promised not to any how think le so yea yea..
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

To B

2010-03-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

Its sat sat sat nite...
Was suppose to go malaysia
n in the canceled..

To go or not to go?
mmm I dun noe leh...
High chance not going ba..

Ok I had made de decision not go LOLx
Den I shall go look for A. wakakaka
Hopefully tomorrow is a fruitful day.

ohya today mine first day of half sat work
is ok ok lo time passed kinda fast lolx.
Tiring too sleep not enough I guess >.<
keep yawning.

Was suppose to meet A but got other things
to attend to. went back home played sims 3
which bc gave me lolx

When dinner with Brandon Korean food its not bad!!
I like the blue berry P something icecream lolx
Its dam filling thanks for the late b dae pressie haha.

Chat- with A. Its enjoyable haha ya maybe its time for a
hair cut when i got a hair cut I will post a pic of it ba
haha. >.< But i kinda like my messy hair now lolx..
N for A info that day i gel my hair veri nice de lo
in the end after work all drop lo so seems to be messy >.<
N somemore dun noe y My comb can lost by itself wan..
now no comb to comb hair more messy lolx..

Tomorrow ought to buy a comb n I found my lip bum LOLx
yea thats was random >.< haha.

Sleep or not sleep Wait or not wait???mm......

Times~

2010-03-12T23:26:00.002+08:00

Hi all,
Its been long that i had posted haha
Ya was busy n tired from work...
cant seem to get enough of sleep.
Tomorrow still need work >.<

But kinda look forward for tomorrow.
hehex Dun noe ba maybe can talk more
with cancer de peeps ar.. Talk n talk
until like no tomorrow lolx..

Anyway I watch Alice le is so funny
hehex I love the cat so cute la
How I wish I have the cat eye lo
so beautiful >.<

Next movie I wana watch is Dragon, being human
or Clash of Titans haha...
O.. ya First time went to iluma de Movie
Not bad leh Veri spacious n comfy haha.
I think is de best ba only maybe thier screen too small
le la or maybe we seat too far liaoz haha..
If their screen were to be bigger it will be better ba ..

Work Work- so fast 2 weeks le Cant wait for
my pay day n finally can spend my own money
with taking it shamefully from my parents ^^

Pride- Sometimes I think that when we r poorer
or less fortunate we tend to be more humble,
N down to earth, when started to have little bit
of accomplishment, fame, wealth, we will stray.
Hopefully The person I m talking in here will
not do that, His being coming more n more proud
n arrogant, Not that its not ok to be..
but come on be more humble like u last time
used to be. Every has been noticing his
proud-ness hopefully he can tone down >.<
dun wan him to be hated or caused another disagreement.
Plz plz plz >.<

Never the least I wana slp le so tired >.<
tomolo need wake up go work at 10..
Hopefully is will be a fun day ^^
Its my first time doing sat shift lo hehe.

Hopefully hopefully I can change myself n be a better me,
not for anyone but myself n de peeps that care abt me ^^
I have a small dream to accomplish now.
Slim down n be proud of my self. wearing wat i wanted haha.
I noe VAIN!! but hey try being fat n tell that to me again!!

Frens out there remind me not to eat too much hehex thanks yo~

Bdae

2010-03-09T22:32:00.003+08:00

So how is my b dae?

My sis got me a b dae cake mango de from Four leaves.
I dun noe. I knew I promised esther to stop talking abt
J but I dun noe while going home I juz lost my self
In dun noe which land. Juz thinking of J. I shouldn had
done it since I wanted to forget but it come so naturally.

My feelings was down n there was rain I didnt noe its rain
or tears but it juz taste salty .. I thought I would be happily
enjoy my b dae. In the end.. Sorry my frens I m emo again.
I guess its hard ba I dun noe le la.. I really dun noe.
Juz letting days pass day by day till I m being woken up
by something big ba.

Always hoping although I keep saying another I m such a bitch.
I dun which is me n which is not anymore..
I m so exhausted with everything. Keep bluffing myself
Someone anyone out there plz juz take me away. To another place
not so far but close enough. close enough to be there.

I didnt noe wat I had done to his fam I really dun noe.
Is there wat I did that changed his world his family?
Y didnt he tell me? I really dun noe ..
It worries me again. It seems like something like this
happend a few yrs ago in my life . My sec life if it really happens
I dun noe wat I will do. But hopefully its not wat i imagine.
Or i cant forgive myself.

I cant stop thinking now... What is going wrong? I really would like to
noe. I thought I could forget after wat I did. But I guess I use de
wrong methods. Haixz I m truly lost. I dun even noe where I am Who I am.

There goes my 21st bdae. I didnt noe wat to do nor happened.
I juz wana rest, Rest forever n not waking up.

Mmmmm

2010-03-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

Shalala.....

What has our teenage kids been doing...
They r getting more n more advance...
having cars n licences at the age of 19 or 20

I really need to find a hole n dig.
I m going to be 21 n haven even got licences
dun even talk abt car LOLX!!

Est!! We got to hurry n pass it gal..
Before july otherwise i dam busy leh need
study car n dip lolx...

Walking my way.. Putting all unhappy things
to the back n forget abt it...

No Point

2010-03-07T23:33:00.003+08:00

Yo guys Wakaka I had a fun n loving
celeb thanks for the ang paos n presents
n thanks to those dears hu came n celeb..
thank you guys veri much ^^
N yeah I smile n laugh whole heartily
without being fake yo

Hope u guys enjoy too yo ^^
Thanks to yiyi for her cake its super nice

Aw~ to u. So Kei Lian hor..
Go & hug, fuck or find bryan luh~
Cant blame me for thinking wrongly
when all u did was move on theres no feelings
n next day pops I with another guy. No explanation
n stuff. sure u might think thats theres no need
to explain stuff to someone u dun care anymore.
there fore dun blame for "wrongly accusing" or
"JUDGE" when u didnt even care to explain nor correct
me or even tell me how u really felt... y wait till now?
testing? joke. Trying to act innocent to gain sympathy..
haixz..Say wateva u wan la since ur word play and twist is
so far the best i ever saw. cool isnt so gifted.

Yup and everything doesnt happen with a snap of de finger
so is ur new found bf juz after a break up.
deny all u wan. try to be as innocent as u wan.
As all ur acting n words holds no value anymore

Sure blinded by love or lus
t.
I couldnt care less anymore abt u n ur world le.
Say all de da dao li u wan to say. u always have ur say
de. Yada yada it juz never ends. Buying things dosent
counted as returning? Not as if I m buying to donate.
When u wanted to return me de money? its always i have no
money, can lend me first pay u later. did i get it back
from u ? I noe when ur in love u give everything happily n shouldnt complaint
but i guess this small gesture was nothing ba its a norm thing for u.
Believe in everything u wan to ba. I also dun noe how
to sustain the capital when going out with u.
blame on everything u wan. since ur all words only
from the be gaining to end i wan do this to u or for u
in the end? where is that thing ^^ N i dun do this n that
in the end? lolx

I guess u juz dun understand me well enough ba since wat i
do was "act" in front of u. You r not that romantic plz.
dun say until ur such a good lover n yada yada.
First love at sight? I really wonders. hate me all u wan.
Cause thats wat I can do for now~ Lover to stranger how cool.
I will juz take it as a lesson learn plus bad investment ba.
No more of this trash le Fuck all u wan give all de love u wan.

M sad to those hu still believe in ur free words.

Party~

2010-03-07T09:39:00.002+08:00

Here comes the day where i gonna celeb my
bdae n yea i m celeb wif no partner again
my wish didnt came true wakaka.

While so wat rite. I didnt when for HF nor CY
B dae Party hope they understand I m sorry ladies
Wonder how to party on with this celeb.
Will I be enjoying it? Or juz holding on to a
fake smile? Hopefully I will get to enjoy it
Hopefully my Leg well juz recover n I can go back to
work as usual I dun wan to take mc seriously
2nd week of work mc is so zzzz

Party with pain lolx thats like OO o well
Life like that, I had learn to suck it up
n juz put it behind my back n not to turn back
anymore wats done is done try to do it better
for the present.

I had change the skin of my blog n I kinda like it..
I think it seems ages that I changed it haha
Hope u guys will have a fun n loving time when u come
today ^^ Sorry for the rest that I didnt invited,
Its juz a mini party nothing big seriously .

BHB

2010-03-06T17:59:00.002+08:00

Omg I cant stand such person anymore..

Plz m I going to wait stupidly to
a never existing love anymore while
ur enjoy every single min of ur new
found toy? Purlish there is no
red line between u n me anymore .
Wat I do-say got nth to with u anymore
Mr.IamSmartAlex.

So please do not say wat line goodness...
I have no lines attached too u anymore
U juz make me gross out... Too stupid to
believe in u at the first place anyway..
Juz an advice Say smth new to ur new found
toy plz Or I will be more gross out..
Using same old methods or styles to play
with ur toy is juz sick zzz...

At least I dare to blog bravely here n not hiding
somewhere blogging n bitching lolx.. Ball-less?
Shit ass Personality N Style.
I juz wasted my time on this post ... O well
Trolling is fun ^^

Work

2010-03-06T15:37:00.003+08:00

YOYO! Today is sat n I m tired so tired X.X

Due to work ba haha its juz 1 week n its like draining
my life away haha...

1. I love my work place .. Hope I can be a perm down there

2. I cant attend HF & CY B dae sorri ladies my leg
act up again.

3. Gout lvl dropping weeee~

4. I so agree to wat someone says someone near to him says
" for those who cheat in the name of "my relationship is in a mess and i am cheating only because i am looking for something better". i guess, you are the one who is making a mess out of the relationship."

5. Went a day tour of praying n changing of luck with a thai shi fu.
-do u guys noe wat he says after reading my palm lolx
*body big but inside is empty
*Sickly Life
*No money luck
*Excel in wateva I do
-Basically I m no good LOLx poor me still living on...

6. I m sorri to B, I m not rdy yet ...

7. I wan slp haha chaoxz

shalala

2010-02-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

mmmm It worries me and make my thoughts
runs wild when seeing him not around at nite
lolx Argh! wth is he doing ....

z.z plz not something that that ....
hopefully not but destiny always
like to play with u de more u dun wan
it to happen de more it will happen.

argh I hate this Hopefully his
not taken by april I would like to
start a new on april n hopefully
by then his more rested n lax le.

I was wondering should asked him
when i will be having tight schedule?
or should juz let him get loved and
when i m more free le den ask leh?

mmm... but the thought of every sec
his spending his time with someone
else juz make me so uncomfortable ..

humph I can drink de whole bottle of
vinegar .. the adult world cheat ppl
easily i dun wan him to get hurt ..
raor.. hope everything is fine...

Kinda happy today n sad la lolx
happy is cause gota eat my fav thing
in CNY lao yu shen 2 times haha...
sad thing is when he told me his
dating someone else >.< tears juz
fills up >.< ya i noe i m moving on
but hey not easy ok 9 months hor.

its a special story for me hur hur...
bleahx!

Quality Hotel~

2010-02-27T08:53:00.002+08:00

Hi all haha yesterday had a wonderful time with my sis
n her bf n her fren wan jun jie lolx .

Went to swimming then meet wan jun jie at quality hotel
to have this porridge buffet its not bad around 10 bucks
per person from 10.30 to 12.30 but I think I will prefer
the dinner wan instead but that will be like 13 plus plus

but the food is better for dinner hahaha. So funny I mistaken
the Shredded shrimp to be ba Hu lolx n ya u can imagine wat kind
of face i made lolx. Thier chiken feet is nice >.< actually everything
that was there is nice Even saw a Dj from 933 Xu Zhen Rong la
lolx he look thinner in real life wor haha. and it juz make me
remind of him haha...

It was lucky that we got to eat the chicken prorrdige before they change it to
sweet potato porridge which wan jun jie say is for poor no money eat de lolx
She is funny lo, enjoyed de every moment haha... Ohya theres a pub beside it
and there where this 2 dancers n we keep commenting on them haha
like they doing SG work out or aerobic lolx.

So excited on my Monday job la lolx Scared cant blend in with my cousin
colleague wakakaka shalala Hopefully today will not be as dead as when
his not around, Will be visiting my aunt house n dun noe hus house lolx.

Ohya I haven go see my toto thing I should go and see now wahahahha...
Chaoxz peeps left 2 more days n end of CNY le yo~

Final

2010-02-26T17:02:00.002+08:00

Ok le la No matter how many sorry sorry i say
it will not be any meaning to him le
since he is numb of my sorries n chances le.

But after reading his blog over n over again
I realized that i m de biggest fool leh
like wat est say, his a veri good bf material is juz
that dun noe wat i am doing. ya regrettable
I guess putting up walls de is me n not him

veri scared to be hurt in my first rs
in the end hurting myself n the person
hu loved me what can i say its karma
and its my fault. I cant blame him anymore,
Cause i m de one single handly destroy this
beautiful love story.

destroyed de men that loved me, I was thinking
of dying but is like wat he say so wat if u die?
well the other party even feel guilty or care?
the only person i will hurt again is de ppl
that is around me.

my sis fren has been dying one after another this leads
me to realize i have to cherish every single person that
i care before they r really dead n gone . life has to be
cherished hey not bad ar i m being more optimistic le haha.

Ya after going through this R/s I truly gained alot of knowledge
and as well as lost lots of precious love on the way.
hah its regrettable but wat is done has been done le.
the only thing that i can do to not hurt him anymore is
smile n move on bravely n wish that tomolo will be a better day
for him n me.

Move on bravely aaron stop thinking of things that u cant undone le
instead do wat u can do noe now n hope for the phuture.
Cause I will really let fate take its way if we r meant to meet again
I will not let go this time. I will confirm shower him wif lots of
homebrew love n care concern n everything nice.

lets smile n part our ways ba. I will be always hoping wishing n waiting
while moving on. dun forget to look up de stars if u ever feel lonely or
sad cause de twinkles of it juz give u hopes n warmth ^^

Love~ Aaron

On to de next my cousin gf found me a job le like finally from out of
the blue after i sent a resume for so long its key in data de la
i m looking forward to it as i will be with my cousin gf we can click haha
wee wee the cool rach n pamu my idols haha I kinda envy them that thier
R/s can stay so strong for so long le . guess is due to their will
matureness n staying together ba haha. Bonzai Bonzai

shalala

2010-02-25T23:14:00.003+08:00

After I knew wats going on le.
I kena felt cheated or maybe thats
how he wanted me to feel.

All answer lies within ,
But I think it really happened as
the cold face n cold tone that he give me
proves everything le.

Or maybe he might be crying n being embrace by
the stealer, or maybe they could have been
eating candle light dinner or even have sex liaoz.
And here I am sitting down contemplating.

Est told me to move on, as it like this liao,
so ya I will be moving on le hopefully that
you will be happy with ur decision n dun
regret it later le . As I will say the same thing
u said to me before Once u decide le n u regret n
when u turn back I will not be there anymore to
grab that hand le.

As wat u had did has make me lost
that trust completely le dating after u juz break up
Interested on that guy only? Craps all ur words r craps
now nothing worth to hear I m loyal n go for ltr
ya u go for ltr Sex & Cash only ba. den will move on to
find another bigger n better gold mine?

Happy that u have made me pissed off at u le?
U had ur wish le. This is not even Heroic okx
Ya frens of him might think that I am a loser now
Help me move on? Ya rite~ Help me move on so u can
openly declare that u had juz found a gold mine ba.

No wonder u liked black smith.. I have been foolish to
think that all he say the where true but its actually
his impulsiveness.

To the stealer Good luck to u ur lucky to have him. ^^
seriously ur lucky.N ur such a bitch to steal.
while money can buy ppl but can it last when u have no
more cash n car n big house? think again dude. Stealer
ought to die a horrible death this is the last time I am
posting abt this le.

Putting all this junk away from my life liaoz.
saddening n sad.. lie all u wan...
Good Nights everyone

Jue Wu

2010-02-25T16:43:00.002+08:00

Shalala Peeps

I m shock Shock Shock But
kinda expected from this circle
it will always replay by its own
wat nonese on dun keep thinking
that there will be a better wan out
there plz. Is that wat I am seeing now

Wateva it is Its over le ba. I cant win
this fight alone n I dun think I can do
anything as I m juz a Poor Peasant.

I had alrdy spent alot of money le.
Guess is time to save up some money
N plan for my future any1 have job
intro intro me or trying to do freelance
singing or admin kind of thing I m green.

All of these drama mama is so dun noe
how to explain with my heart heavy ba
ya its like a chain or a ton of things
dropping carrying ur heart with it haha

maybe I should check myself Hopefully
he didnt been so unlawfull or else
I will be dam fucking pissed .. Cheaters
bond to have a bad ending KARMA..

Ya I believe in Karma now haha
Yup yup Rebound T.T Shalala
I think i missed alot of things
Blinded by love or lust haha
I guess I would start my you tube singing
soon though that sounds lame haha
but i wana try out n see wat peeps say
abt my voice ^^

I need some help on editing n posting hu can
help me sia green horn again. to think of it
I have been living inside a pool of lies
n bubbles that arent even secured

LOVE started out so fast n ended so fast too.
I should love myself more n be wise to pick
hu to be frens wif or noe haha no more playing
a fool le lesson learnt r suppose to be remembered

So happy to have est as bff ^^ Love u est muacks
Making ur bf Jealous wahahhaha ^^
Love is beautiful better dun tarnish it orh~
Carries on singing emo no good I should be
more happy. sometimes taking a step back would
be better breath rest n move on for another battle.

shalalala I m bored i guess wakakaka though
i would like to see each n everyone lives that i care
plz tell me ur story when ur with him how did it started
n how did it end i m veri interested seriously .

Chaoxz

Regrets- dedicated to u~

2010-02-24T21:49:00.003+08:00

Isnt it weird when something is strip away from you.

Den u will noe how impt that thing is to u, I learnt through

the hard way though I wanted to be his forever n show him

that there is forever such things, but i guess I walk too much away

from that n ended up being complacent n take things for granted.

From loving alot till not loving me anymore, Makes me wonder

does all the things he said before are lies or cause i hurt him

too much and he chose to throw away everything that he once

cherish so much~

Its too late too read all his blog entry n the conversation we

made in FB. T he precious time has flown away from me,

No matter how I ask or hope or wish it will not come back to me.

After having the feel of how he talk to his frens, his like a total

stranger cold n scary. Now even though i missed his caring words

comfort words it will never be back again. But I will still carry on to hope

as I dun wish to give up so easily. when u tried so hard then.

I will still be ur star shining at the nite sky looking at u.

though u might not see me as there will be more shiner stars

den me i will still keep on shining n hope.

Never knew losing someone so dear is so painful, all blames that

I didnt cherish n didnt noe wat bliss means when i alrdy have it.

still lying to myself that if i love u i should let u have ur happiness

n let go. when u ask to move on n said that ur rdy to i stunt for a while

I didnt knew that i could hurt u that much to totally move on on the spot.

When i heard that ur interested in someone alrdy, i didnt noe how to respond

but wish u best of luck, as i had been replaced alrdy there no more hope

for ur return. I hate myself for not understanding n was playing a fool.

Its to late to say I love you, will u move on again after another relationship

or will u have ur forever cause u said everyone have to move on thats that

means u never intended to have a stable forever?

Ya forever is never lasting but ppl do have forever, i do believe that somebody

do had exp it. I might sound cheap now, but wat can i do, move on?

Joking rite, My feeling for u is as real as it is. how could i juz move on

like this. "I closed my eyes, I tried not to think. But in the darkness, I was taken back to the beginning.

It got me wondering, was there any part in this story that I truly got him happy or touched.

Was there, at any point in time, where he wished only to be with me forever.

Because I do, at every point in time. I never stopped wishing, and perhaps he never did."

How I wish he would say that again to me I do really wish to be with

you forever. Its too late isnt it after being strip off from his forever

den did i realize i loved him forever he touched me n i was happy

to be with him but that point in time had stopped n flown to the past

like the winds that engulfed our promises. I will wait for his return.

Though he said that theres no chances anymore and moved on,

But i still believe. Even u threw the things that were meaningful

n I cant retrieve them back. We could always create a new romance.

I really would like to re live this life n cherish the moments with him

n create a new chapter but life only have one hopefully i will have

another chapter with him. A new chapter perhaps. I can feel his

sadness n loneliness n coldness when i did it back den. I am sorry dear.

Hopefully this new person is ur forever. N i can "die this heart"

Chinese direct translate. I am listening to the song he dedicated for me

DGray Men The 14 Song. Will he ever play this song to other guy x.x

Plz dun thats my song T.T

Can an1 tell me how to get him back when he keeps rejecting it.

Should I stop so that he will not be annoyed at me? And juz look

from a far? But i m so curious on wat his doing n stuff, cause

he always will tell me x.x

If theres a god y do u have to torture me this far, not like

i dun have enough tortures from u le. those sweet little things.

Hiaxz friday its our 9th anni n its no more le T.T I guess i can be his

annoying fren as for now ba . Sorry sis I dun think i can turn back

anymore, unless theres another BLT hu is inlove with me LOLx

I started work n all i got was cuts n bruise n burnts, how i hope that he

is there to sayang me n kiss me, but all i got was wear glove next time lo.

I dun noe whether to laugh or cry cause a person can change so much in 3 days.

I m not that significant anymore le ma i can juz die there no body cares

anymore le. Ya in de end look for my agent n complaint that wat she describe

is so totally different from wat i m doing now. arms n fingers r cramping,

Easily gotten care n kindness was not there for me anymore. So pathetic neh haha.

I m such a Fail n loser, Fail blog can juz invite me n take my daily life

dun need wat grandma or ppl getting kicked in the dick cause I am

de biggest Fail hahax.

This make me wondering wat will happen to him when i broke up with him

that time will he be as fail as me or will he juz let it go n move on again.

Y cant i have the forget thing the dust from the tooth fairy n juz make him forget

the pain n hurtful times he when his with me ^^" guess I cant get that,

ok la enough of my long post I cant be like him playing piona get his forgiveness,

Maybe i could sing X.X

FUckers

2009-06-22T13:39:00.002+08:00

In the Super Acting Faggots Place
They really do regularly Act sia
They r so good in acting thats y they Sign On
This ppl juz like to suck balls / Carry Balls
Happily Backstabbing each other....

Come on drop de act.. Actors/Actress
Playing with power as usual ..
Nothing better to do..
U think ppl should bow down n kiss ur feet
Y not ask ur self R u even respected Fag

I will not forget those drama acting n
playing god n kind in this yrs that I met u
Still say the job make u an arse hole..
I think ur de arse hole urself eh~
=.="

Counting down to me ORD date
Where I dun have to see so much of these
drama again...

Loves n Misses

2009-05-02T10:18:00.003+08:00

Wahahaha PPl Is alrdy May le~
Time really Do fast...
I cant wait ppl to ord asap so next
in line would be finally my turn..

But I am quite afraid that once I came out
from NS(Shelter) I CMI!!

Is like so long never study le..
Den need to tune to study mood..
As I get stupider n stupider each day
in Camp ZzZz...

I really quite afraid I cant cope N
disappoint my family T.T
But wateva la See How I die or surevive man.

As The saying says U need at least a cert to survive
in SG.. Even Uni Students cant survive le T.T

Stress stress Stressess of Life wahahahahah..

Argh I had become more n more random le sia~ lol

RUDE

2009-04-29T19:42:00.001+08:00

Hi,

M Aunt sent me this ...

Quite Funny hahaha.

How to Treat a Rude Customer

An award should go to the gate attendant at Luqa airport. A crowded Malta-London flight was cancelled. She was the lone attendant in charge of re-booking a long line of inconvenienced travelers.Suddenly an angry passenger pushed his way to the desk. He slapped his ticket down on the counter and said, "I HAVE to be on this flight and it HAS to be FIRST CLASS". The attendant replied, "I'm sorry sir. I'll be happy to try to help you, but I've got to help these people first, and I'm sure we'll be able to work something out." The passenger was unimpressed. He asked loudly, so that the passengers behind him could hear, "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHO I AM?" Without hesitating, the attendant smiled and grabbed her public address microphone: May I have your attention please? May I have your attention please?" she began. With her voice being heard clearly throughout the terminal, she said, "We have a passenger here at Gate 14 WHO DOES NOT KNOW WHO HE IS. If anyone can help him find his identity, please come to Gate 14." With the folks behind him in line laughing hysterically, the man glared at the attendant, gritted his teeth and said, "F*** You!" Without flinching, she smiled and said, "I'm sorry, sir, but you'll have to get in line for that too."

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2009-04-26T21:37:00.001+08:00

Wahahaha Went to watch Firday 13...
Not bad yo~
Cathay Air Con Really Freakign COLD!!!
Next time must bring jacket T.T

I enjoy tonights event Hope u enjoy too Yo~

25

2009-04-26T10:16:00.002+08:00

WOW ~~~~ Congratez me pppl I left 6 months n counting hahahha~
6 months till Finally Leave NSF Life~ Freedom~
Still Far la But come on I survuved For 1 n a half yr le leh hahaha~

I forgotten to wish my boss B dae yesterday XD...
Now sms him will abit weird rite... Like duh~
so

HAPPY B DAY BOSSS~

N I am not hitting My Boss Butt Ok Purlish....
Yawnx Yawnx~
Later gonna go lesson le hahaha Cant wait ...

Sian leh My ankle this few days hurting on n off
So not I dun wan go clubbing wif u guys IS juz that
Nature juz DUN take its Course of direction!!!!
Sian But really Sorry Keep rejecting my Beloved < puke XD
Campmates invitation to ZOUK!! >.<

Went to Party World yesterday Wif a bunch of frens...
So long never go Sing out loud le~ Quite Shiok hahaha
But I really have limited knowledge of songs sia...
Must really go n Listen to more songs ^^
Any1 Going to K GE Dun forget me yo~

Finally Rants over~
Wonder Y am I so hyper ZzzZzZ

Awake

2009-04-10T22:10:00.002+08:00

YOYOYOYOO!!

I noe my blog has not been updated for a long long time~

Ya but no feel to update leh!!!

but!!!! Jy ask me to update so Ok lorx

I went out wif dashing/handsome/charming JUN YI yesterday!

Went to fareast to look for a spec but cant find T.T!!!!

Denw ent to queenstown My Shoppign heaven LOL!!

Brought a new Short n 2 shirts cause around 100 plus!

Den bought 2 rings n 2 belts N de sales gal STILL DIDNT SING

after she said that if I bought 2 rings! She will sing a song!

But ! PI!!! she LIED!!!! BleahhhXxxx Gals jzu cant be TRUSTED!!!

Hahaha So SEXIST me XD

Today, Went to MALAYSIA bought a spec a soso spec lor

kinda of like kana cheated but nvm la! Still CHEAP!!!!

N 2 ear studs!! long long de hahahha But heavy leh!!!

N finally I bought the MIC Necklace But den horxx

1 of de crystal drop lorxxx Den need to be repaired

basket rite de same day take n wear it DROPPED!!!!!

Dammitt But I STILL LOVE IT!!!! wahahhahaha

lalalalala Shopping can KILL all SADNESS ...

No wonder everyone is earning money so they can

spend it n wash away sadness will obvious not all laxxxx

but majority I think~ dun mind me if I am WRONG!! Humh~

cny

2009-01-25T15:54:00.003+08:00

Hi Hi!

Happy CNY in advance yoz..

wahaha I noe my previous post r all words.

So For this post I gona let pics talk.

Brief Intro.. I renovated my room de wall

haha 1 of the walls only.. Is I DIY de ok...

Starting! I never took de before pics haha!

backgrounds!

bed frame

I can see the Stars. I can see de Stars in LUV!

Overview 1

over view 2

bolding

highlight

coffin

together NOW

Wat we have here?

CREEPY!

OMINE!

WATS TIS?

FINAL WORK!

Thats all hahaha >.<>

HAPPY CNY AGAIN! STAY COOL N HAPPY PPL!

2009-01-16T18:19:00.006+08:00

I got this from a fren in FaceBook wahahaha lets try it out.

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?

MaMa Mia - Meryl Streep

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Does Your Mother Know - Christine Baranski

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

I am Missing - Whisung

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

爱昧 - Rainie Yang

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

男人女人 - 許茹芸& 阿穆隆

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

一万个快乐 - Fahrenheit

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Byul - Kim Ah Joong

WHAT IS 2+2?

手拥 - 信

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

想听的话 - 石欣卉 & 王建复

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

无辜 - Gary Cao

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

2 Less Lonely People In This World - Air Supply

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

今天你要嫁给我 - Jolin Tsai & David Tao

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Unforgettable - Nat King Cole

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

木乃伊 - JJ Lin

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

王子 - Nicholas Zhang

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

I Will Follow Him - Sister Act

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Endless Story - Oliva Lufkin

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

Have I Told You Lately - Rod Stewart

HOW WILL YOU DIE?

I'll Make Love To You - Boyz II Men

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

JoyFull,JoyFull, - Lauryn Hill

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

我恨你 - 信

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

Flying Without Wings - WestLife

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

借口 - S.H.E

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

2 Years & 2 Months - FOD

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

Maya - Lower Area

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

Eevry Time I Close My Eyes - Baby Face

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

Every Thing I Do, I Do It For You - Bryan Adams

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

When The Music Fades - Matt Redman

Thats All Hahaha 60% accurate ba LOL!

Now is for my Weekly Camp Rants...

Loser XX R u Handicapped? Or can I Say U had mastered de Art of Siamming ARROWS? And Deflect it? Like HEROS? Innocent Creature Like me Need to do ur bloody job.. While Bastards Like u sit down there n wait to die n crumble to nothing!!!! While U do look at forums n Comics BUT THATS FUCKING NOT RELATED TO WHAT UR SUPPOSE TO DO FUCK ARSE! Y not juz kill ur self or die alrdy? Wasting space for better ppl to coem in to do the job =.=" Dun Understand y u can be so *Sell Meat la... Get a Life can..FUCK U FUCK U FUCK U U BLOODY ARSE HOLE.. Hope u juz get knocked down by cars or choke to death by ur own saliva or lagi best cough till u drop dead.. Or when ur sleeping get strangled by ur blanket or juz drop dead, NO! drop dead is a cheap way for u to die... Argh cant explain how much I hate this person till de core man is the max la THE WORST DICK HEADS I HAD EVER SEEN!!! Y is there such ppl in this WORLD??? Come one la lazy idiotic self centred, n for u bloody god dam info is not even funny lor=.=" on wateva thing ur laughing off at hope u juz get choke by ur laughter with all the fats stuck in ur throat ARGHHGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK I M IN FLAMES!!!

Changes

2009-01-11T15:14:00.002+08:00

I Wonder did my eyes play trick on me or I dun wan to belive it but OMG la! My Pri schl fren last time a ugly duckling now become a 2nd rate Swan OO is this even possible?

Changes So many ppl r changing but Y do I not see any changes on me sian sian sian Only change I see is From thin to FAT! And I kana Go From FAT to THIN! back Hondoni!

But quite freak out la From a Tom Boy Short Curly Hair N bossy Attitude She became quite an Ah Lian wor.. Is Not Ugly lian ok Is the Still Ok de ah lian! Wonder Y i even write it out? Cause I was wondering how she would look like now.

And I found my answer by accident browsing of blogs HAHAHA!
Give quite a shock out of my life.. I thought She would be some typical tomboys or wat in de end she become so girly .. Unbeliveable.. Totaly ... Shocking man hahahaha.. Hopefully she dosent now I m talking abt her hahaha.

So time Really do change someone. R Changes even good.
When Will I step out of my Comfort Zone? Or My own
lala land my own dimension as someone said hahaha!

I noe that I had been talking abt slimming down since last few yrs till now haha but i haven slim down sia realy need someone to keep pushing. Y cant I do things for my own sake..
Y cant human accept hu u wan to be n hu u r? No doubt that everyone ones to look at good n nice things but the bad things r the 1 that let de good one stand out! So y r the good looking one proud of? If theres no bad lookers will u even be standing out? and arent u sick n tired of looking at those o so nice things? Shouldnt u ppl face reality on those o so ekk things..

JUZ SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS! hahah!

Long Time No see

2009-01-10T16:50:00.002+08:00

Harlow Everyone Long time NO SEE!!

haha Yeah I nearly give up blogging haha!
Cause quite sian la! I didn't noe that my camp mate
got visit my blog de haha.. So now wateva i write
must becarefull le wor HAHAHA!!

Well Hell ya this my blog my space!
wateva i like u dun like JUZ GET LOST!
simple? SIMPLE!

hehehehe..

Haiyo I have alot pic haven post leh but I
dam lazy to post it up wor How ar???

Is there an easier way to post pics?
I have to put it into photo bucket den
transfer it over here as html codes wor
T.T dam troublesome lorx...

O... HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR MY
FELLOW FRENS~

Anyway yea New Year So must have New things
Rite Yea so I had New Blog Skin..
No more bloody bloody le.. hehe
Soothing for ur eyes le ba!!!

Many Things Had happen in 2008 But lets look
forward to 2009~ Yea This Yr Will be my ORD
Yr le wor hahah! Means Going back to study le
and sian lor so long never touch books le
scared become retarded even kana called
bimbo in camp can!!!

Yea and that's means I gona pursue my dreams
as a singer liao wor.. hahahah But 1st of all
I have to shed some fats first hahaha....
Please support me wor hehehehehe

This year also marks de end of my teenage days...
Sian rite going to be 20 LIAO wor..
ppl keep asking me to act as my age..
but how do u noe wat ur age should act as wat?
shouldn't u be original n be urself den be
someone else shadow? Sad rite.

Yum Yum

2008-11-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

Domo Mina-san..

Yea long time no blog le..
wahaha wat to say Alot things happen
lately 1 after another .
Some times I really thought of giving up
and run away..

But no way M i gona back down..
Cause I do belive that theres really such
thing as "TRUE LOVE" and the person
whos is rite for me. "UR THE ONE"
So I m not giving up yet.. Keep dreaming n hoping
that de day well come haha...
Will u be de one I geuss? (hopefully ba haha)
So long for o.. so lovey dovey ~ Hahah

Yea Went wif chin yin esther n Mr G to eat BENTENcafe
at JP let de pic talk only got 3 to 4 pic only la lol..
Cause that day never really cam whore haha,,
So no face de pics all food kk start drooling!!

HAMBURGER ANYONE? This is superb!

This is the thing I wana shwo u guys!! Amazed?

We were tricked quite diff from de photo in de MENU!

Look at de layers yummy Dao~

Half way there Gambatte!

Yea FINISH !! GRatez~

We r proud man~

At de same time fattening =.="

The funny thing is while we r eating theres a group of Ah Qua
keep looking at us eating this big tub of thing lol..
They were shocked n amaze that we can finish it lol..
Anyway I forgotten wats is this called le..
But theres pineapple wintermelon orange nad PEACH!
Coffe pudding (menu shows mango pudding =.=")
Icecreams creams strawberries kiwii and Corn Flakes!

Haha thats the end ..

tomolo i going genting loh~
Will post alot pic when i m back kk..
SAVE JOURNEY TO ME ~ & my family~
Haha Dun miss me You guys~
Will be back on de sunday nite i suppose ^^

Broke

2008-11-03T15:00:00.003+08:00

Tian Tian Tian ar!!!!!!

I m so SICK SICK SICK!!!
2 straight week getting sickz!
Ownage!! Gona kana call chao keng
king again =.="""

Please not I wan de ok~
If dun noe dun anyhow say BAKA!
Anyway this week I m sick again yea
Serious dam sick lor can u imagine
a combo of fever cough flu n throat pain...

How sucky it is =.="
Anyway I reset 1 le in MU but esther like
cant play cause her program got prob keep
disconnecting so never go bc wonder should
i chiong another reset..

But I m on MC till like tomorrow nia lol..
Hey but counted as lucky siam away
some uninteresting n waste time de thing lol

N da dang Present to u te song

PEACH!!! cute song ok I like it

Erm its in de jap hana kimi de
main song yeah by Otsuka Ai..
she dam cute sia de voice too.
I m not copying esther FOR SURE lol...
Is juz that she intro me watch hana kimi
de jap version haha..

yeah its dam nice.. de show is way
better den de taiwan de ... all de guys
n gals there is got standard de lol...
No offence to de Taiwan supporter
though ^^...

GET WELL SOON FOR ME LOL...

hi

2008-10-27T20:38:00.003+08:00

I noe that I have not psoted for a long time le..

But seriously This week de event!

Not that I dun wan to post..

But I m at lost lol.. ya

kinda lazy to post... Haixz

Seems weird ... wateva la

Anyway Happy to be a 1yr Soldier le

Yeah I wish the ppl same batch as me de

Happy 1 yr wor.... ^^

N 1 more yr to go... We can do it!!!!

Hi Hi

2008-10-22T17:24:00.006+08:00

Domo DOmo...

Heres Part 2

This is the dinner part a few pics only Cause too hungry too

take photo wahahaha! But its shiok can....FYI We ate at LOT 1 the
Pasta Mania(Dun noe how to spell) XD

This is Unagi Spag Its nice la. Abit Spicy only..

I forgotten what is this called le.. But is MS intro de dam nice...

Total food that I shared with MS lol In the end we cant finish the Pizza!

Thats all cause my Digi cam no batt le So this are by my HP.
My Hp cam not strong so didn't took much photos XD

Next is 2 photo which we(aa,Esther,HF) were too bored then we take de
cause we waiting for the rest to reach East Coast Park!.

The Retards lol

Ah fang Acting dao here lol!!

Anyway this is not photoshop make the is one of my camera phone function!

Next A gross photo My wisdom tooth extraction lol !!!

Dont ask me y but I juz feel like posting it lol..
2 more to go XD

SAKAE

Went to Sakae with Esther cause have to urge to eat sushi for dam long le..
Actually was a 3 person thingy in the end left us 2 only. haixz any here goes.

Great Variety of SUHI'S!!!!! I juz love the egg wan man! And Salmon!

Look Look I was shocked to find Unagi Chawamushi!! My fav jap fish UNAGI!!

This is the Original one Sakae Chawamushi!
Personally I think this is better the Unagi the egg no taste wan! @@

Lol we 2 ate abt 20 plus plates ba lol! My slimming program juz wasted !

Seaweed Udon nice nice nice!!!!

Our Desert Strawberry Kiss And Mochi!!! SHIOK!

The chu chu Train lol !

Esther!Talking to hu ar?

M3! Esther took it with my camera I look dam ke lian here!
Lol lame dao she toe pai me !!!!!

Anyway We went to Tanjong Paga the Sakae Cause only there got Dinner Buffet the Sushi !!! Wahahah Really enjoy the day!!!
But if the 3rd person was to come it would be more enjoyable.
Ah! Wateva lol enjoy can liao ^^

Next post I should be posting the ZOO photos lol My family outing la Have my veri cute niece in there.

Weee3 more days and its my 1 year of serving NS which means I left 1 more year of serving also lol ...

photos

2008-10-15T19:34:00.002+08:00

Harlow... Photo Photos.....

Yes finally pipping hot photos is here....

Ok let the photo do the talking now...

Ok its in order from latest to old lol....

lets start.....

Class Gathering cum Jack's Bdae 111008

The early Birddys

We were dam hungry cuse never take breakfast so yeah Subway Eat Fresh lol!

Tai Tai jia dao~ Ok in here she said something like this" I am hot or its juz me"

wahaha me n fang fang

heres the B dae cake!

Look at the happy B dae Gal! Jackline

ok cut cake cut cake!!!!!

Esther is that urs?

The 3 Sirens~

Our Mr. HUNK to be~

The Cyclist!

Big Sand Castle!!!

Newly Weds ~ Gratz

EMO QIANG

Vroom Vroom!

Bimbos Of the day >.<

Now they r getting serious!

WX Jack & MS

This person win le can work in EastCoastPark while fishing!!!

Fang emoing.. Juz jump ! =.="

Elaine & XH! Dun wat Xh doing lol...

EC try Blading

After that Leg Suan lol....

WX EC QX

Hall of fame 1

Hall of fame 2

Gals post 1

Gals post 2

guys I cant really open my eye in a sunny day T.T

here goes another good fren photo

what they planning sia????

I will not forget this moment dam funny ... XH screamed TA MA DE!!!! iN a HIGH pitch voice lol....

Ok this is juz PART 1 of the photo thingy !!!

Hoped u enjoyed it!

jil

2008-10-10T21:41:00.004+08:00

DOMO DOMO......

Ok I Noe veri long never touch le lol....
But who cares any way lol...

I changed song again... This song is nice nice nice dao~
Hope u guys enjoy this song... LUCKY~

I also wana be lucky...

Tomorrow going to have a gathering wor....
So long since de last gathering I gona take photo
wahahahah!! yeah gathering my batch de sec5s
Secondary schl is de best... So ppl out there
cherish ur SEC SCHL LIFE!!! GOd dam it lol...

ok here I gona share something wif u guys.

Very clever indeed!

TALE OF TWO PEBBLES

Many years ago in a small Indian village,
a farmer had the misfortune of owing
a large sum of money to a village moneylender.
The moneylender, who was old and ugly,
fancied the farmer's beautiful daughter.
So he proposed a bargain.
He said he would forgo the farmer's debt
if he could marry his daughter.
Both the farmer and his daughter were horrified by the proposal.
So the cunning money-lender suggested that they
let Providence decide the matter.
He told them that he would put a black pebble
and a white pebble into an empty money bag.
Then the girl would have to pick one pebble from the bag.

1) If she picked the black pebble,
she would become his wife and her father's debt would be forgiven.

2) If she picked the white pebble she need not marry him
and her father's debt would still be forgiven.

3) If she refused to pick a pebble, her father would be thrown into jail.

They were standing on a pebble-strewn path in the farmer's field.
As they talked, the moneylender bent over to pick up two pebbles.
As he picked them up, the sharp-eyed girl noticed that
he had picked up two black pebbles and put them into the bag.
He then asked the girl to pick a pebble from the bag.

Now, imagine that you were standing in the field.

What would you have done if you were the girl?

If you had to advise her, what would you have told her?

Careful, analysis and would produce three possibilities:

1. The girl should refuse to take a pebble.

2. The girl should show that there were two black pebbles
in the bag and expose the moneylender as a cheat.

3. The girl should pick a black pebble and sacrifice herself
in order to save her father from his debt and imprisonment.

Take a moment to ponder over the story.

The above story is used with the hope that
it will make us appreciate the difference between
lateral and logical thinking.
The girl's dilemma cannot be solved with traditional logical thinking.
Think of the consequences if she chooses the above logical answers.
What would you recommend to the Girl to do?
Well, here is what she did ....
The girl put her hand into the moneybag and drew out a pebble.
Without looking at it, she fumbled and let it fall
onto the pebble-strewn path where it immediately became
lost among all the other pebbles.
'Oh, how clumsy of me,' she said.
'But never mind, if you look into the bag for the one that is left,
you will be able to tell which pebble I picked.
' Since the remaining pebble is black,
it must be assumed that she had picked the white one.
And since the moneylender dared not admit his dishonesty,
the girl changed what seemed an impossible situation
into an extremely advantageous one.

MORAL OF THE STORY?

Most complex problems do have a solution.

It is only that we don't attempt to think.
Start your day with this thought provoking story
and have a fruitful day.

Have a week filled with positive thoughts and sound decisions.

Therefore I wish everyone that u have a great weekend a head n a great great week ahead lol.... Confirm got alternative ways to solve de problem wan.. No such thing as
~~NO CHOICE!~~

a

2008-09-29T22:21:00.004+08:00

Domo.....
Shalalalla

Haixz I failed again wor...
I cant merge the 2 blog skin i
wanted together trying to ask
jun yi the cousin to help me wor
but jy is busy =.=""'

Ya N i haven post up my photos yet...
broken Promise again...
Sori my faithful readers......(if theres any).

i WILL try my very BEST okok...

Today went to Vivo wif jy n hr lol have alot
of fun wakakaka...

Yea change a new song 1 step a time...
take things slowly my frens..
since theres only a life time we have..
dun wait to rush n rush to wait.
Plan properly n observe before u start chionging....

good luck to all in wateva ya doing~.

HaixZ also dun noe wat I saying =.="

Tomorrow going to have paint ball,
flying fox & archery wor...

Quite looking forward to it...
lets have fun mates...
It seems that I really didn't left any
foot print in my sec schl life or worst
from young... lol..
I m gona do it from now onwards....
Onward I go ~~~~
Wateva u guys says I will juz move forward
more to realise my dream~ DREAM~~~~~

Ok here I m going to share a few joke wif u guys.

LITTLE RALPHY ON MATH (Part 1)

A teacher asks her class,
'If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence and you shoot one of them, how many will be left?'
She calls on little Ralphy.
He replies, 'None, they will all fly away with the first gunshot.
'The teacher replies, 'The correct answer is 4, but I like your thinking.
'Then little RALPHY says, 'I have a question for YOU.
There are 3 women sitting on a bench having ice cream:
One is delicately licking the sides of the triple scoop of ice cream.
The second is gobbling down the top and sucking the cone.
The third is biting off the top of the ice cream.Which one is married?
'The teacher, blushing a great deal, replied,
'Well, I suppose the one that's gobbled down the top and sucked the cone.
'To which Little RALPHY replied,
'The correct answer is 'the one with the wedding ring on,' but I like your thinking.

'LITTLE RALPHY ON MATH (Part 2)

Little RALPHY returns from school and says he got an F in arithmetic.
'Why?' asks the father?'
The teacher asked 'How much is 2x3,'' I said '6', replies RALPHY.
'But that's right!' says his dad.
'Yeah, but then she asked me 'How much is 3x2?
'''What's the f...... difference?' asks the father.
'That's what I said!'

LITTLE RALPHY ON ENGLISH

Little RALPHY goes to school, and the teacher says,
'Today we are going to learn multi-syllable words, class.
Does anybody have an example of a multi-syllable word?'
RALPHY says 'Mas-tur-bate.
'Miss Rogers smiles and says, 'Wow, little RALPHY, that's a mouthful.
'Little RALPHY says, 'No, Miss Rogers, you're thinking of a blowjob.

'LITTLE RALPHY ON GRAMMAR

Little RALPHY was sitting in class one day.
All of a sudden, he needed to go to the toilet.
He yelled out, 'Miss Jones, I need to take a piss!!'
The teacher replied, 'Now, RALPHY, that is NOT the proper word to use in this situation.
The correct word you want to use is 'urinate.'
Please use the word 'ur-i-nate' in a sentence correctly, and I will allow you to go.
'Little RALPHY, thinks for a bit, and then says,
'You're an eight, but if you had bigger tits, you'd be a TEN!'

LITTLE RALPHY ON GRAMMAR (Part 2)

One day, during lessons on proper grammar, the teacher asked for a show of hands from those who could use the word 'beautiful' in the same sentence twice.
First, she called on little Suzie, who responded with,
'My father bought my mother a beautiful dress and she looked beautiful in it.
''Very good, Suzie,' replied the teacher.
She then called on little Michael.
'My mummy planned a beautiful banquet and it turned out beautifully.
'She said, 'Excellent, Michael!'
Then the teacher reluctantly called on little RALPHY.
'Last night at the dinner table, my sister told my father that she was pregnant,
and he said 'Beautiful, just f...... beautiful!''

LITTLE RALPHY ON GETTING OLDER

Little RALPHY was sitting on a park bench munching on one candy bar after another.
After the 6th one a man on the bench across from him said,
'Son, you know eating all that candy isn't good for you.
It will give you acne, rot your teeth, and make you fat.
'Little RALPHY replied, 'My grandfather lived to be 107 years old.
'The man asked, 'Did your grandfather eat 6 candy bars at a time?
'Little RALPHY answered, 'No, he minded his own f....... business.

I LOVE little RALPHY!!!!!

Ah Lian as phone operator

Ah Lian goes for a job interview as a phone operator.

After a short conversation,

the manager realizes that Ah Lian cant speak decent English

and he decides to make it hard for her and says

"Ok, I'll employ you if you can use 3 English words in a sentence".

Ah Lian of course agrees.

The manager says, the 3 words are: Green, Pink and Yellow.

Now use them in 1 sentence."

Ah Lian thinks really hard for about 2 minutes, then says,

"Hmmm, Ok. The phone, it went Green, Green, Green,

I Pink it up and sez Yellow?"

Ah Beng and Ah Lian go to hawker center

One day, Ah Beng and Ah Lian go to a hawker center. Ah Lian notices the hygiene grades display at every stall so she asks Ah Beng,"

Eh, "A, B, C, D" which one is better ah?"

Ah Beng stretches his head and says,

" Wah lau eh . . . so simplur . . . you donno meh?

Of course "C" and "D" better lah!

A and B stand for "Alamak", "Bo liao !" (no ingredients).

C and D stand for "Cheap" and "Delicious" mah!"

Singapore Brainless Kid

During a rehearsal for Channel-5 game show

"Singapore Brainiest Kid",

a contestant was asked to name the opposite gender of animals.

The host, Cheryl Fox asked " OK, tell me what's the opposite of cow ?"

The contestant answered, "Bull."

Satisfied with the answer,

Sheryl asked" What's the opposite of cock ?"

There was a moment of silence.

It seemed like the contestant did not know the answer.

Cheryl trying to calm him, "Its OK, just tell me what you think it is.

"The young boy paused for a moment, scratched his head,

moved closer to the microphone & finally answered loudly, "Chee Bye!"

wahhahahah .......

Grates u have juz survive a whole lot of crap wahahaha
juz wasted ur time in here XD. lax la got joke some more leh

*Jokes r meant for laugh only ok.. I have nth against anyone out there *.^ *

LOL ROFL bleah!

51

2008-09-18T10:03:00.004+08:00

WOWOWOWOW!!!!
this Is my 51 post OMG!!! lol

Cant believe it though lol.... Hey hey anyway today is my sec day of
wisdom tooth extraction ok nothing much except except My face is swollen
yea fat face plus swollen really no diff lol.. Look fatter nia...
Ok la the pain was when after the tooth is extracted out...
Den after a few hours You will feel painful.. After I ate
1 of their painkillers No more pain le till today.... wahahahah
lucky me rite... My recovering rate is quick ok I can eat normally now
except except when come to hard food I have to chew slowly la...
cause still got the stitches holding my gum so cant have big movement..
SPECIAL THANKS to everyone
hu is concern... TYTYTY
Thank you my mum hu cook nice nice soft dishes
for me.
My sis for buying yogurt lol...
And frens wahahhaha
Next I have thought of changing my blog skin le..
Cause this kinda old le rite... but abit ma fan leh
but u see since i have time Y NOT rite..
SO my goal for this week although its like
Thursday le =.=" IS change a new skin by this sat...
so stay tune ok peeps.
Ok Juz now I finish watching STEP UP 2 finally...
yea to u guys its a old movie le But I HAVE NO TIME
TO WATCH IT UNTILL I HAVE THIS MC OK...
After watching it.. I have more urge to learn dancing...
Dam a fat pig dancing wahahhahah must be hilarious...
hey but dancing is one of the element to slim down
faster ok since it moves all parts of ur dancing..
and if u can sing n can dance den have higher chance
rite is juz that weather u dare to take that challenge
anot.. I wan to be confidence wahahahahh... So yeah maybe
I would take up lessons but see how first la...
My Sunday is singing I wonder do they have weekends
dancing class... Maybe should ask... Anyone wan join me??
Anyway HB show me this I TOUCH ver 2 Dam shouldn't had
went to see it =.=' Can play game some more la... In the
end ya going to buy it wif HB but his asking the prize ..
OMG I think I would be broke before the end of this year
la I thought of saving money the lors... Cant say my expense
are big but its neither small too... I always thought that
I never spend alot put in the end my bank left wif lesser den
50 can.... Haixz I should really really think abt
Money management.. wan join this n that then wan buy this
and that How can I cope... I must plan properly
Per month the salary is jus 520 only lor... =.="""

And yea I would post up pics on my next post ok...
Finally pics lol Next post I will let the pics
talk n not me whahahahah....

wee

2008-09-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

I Like u so much better when ur naked... wahahahahah

This song rox men....

Enjoy the song my fren ~

Weee good news wor... I finish serving my confinement le wahahahah

yeah yeah yeah... I m free le ppl...

Anyway Tomolo I going to pluck my WISDOM TOOTH...

T.T Scared pain dao... lol Now alrdy abit pain le...

Juz now while eating my steak It suddenly swollen la..

lol hopefully tomolo extraction would be successfully
I heard from my officer he say is fail will have some side effect
like ur lips cant feel (sense) properly like normal...
OMG LA IF CANT SENSE THEN HOW TO SING????]

WISH ME LUCK PPL

LOVE YAS~

Sowhatr

2008-09-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

Nalalaalalal ~ New song ^.^ Cause I knew that
sat n wed I will not be online. Yea Gona Clear my
Weekend confinement at 1 shot. Smart rite but this
is gona sacrifice my sun music lesson sia ... Will miss
it like so much la lol...

I m stun when tommy ask us Y dun we go for competitions?
I asked We noobies wor how to compete? The ans I got is
for experience and luck~ Cause even if u pro no luck
u also wouldn't go far.. So How? I would be crazy if I go join
any thing now.. 1st I in NS my time is so packed. 2nd wif my
current body I dun even stand a chance.

This leads to I have to work harder.... Hiaxz... I must really
slim down before I come out to NS. Otherwise no one would
even wans me far more vote for me when I go compete..
And yea I would retake my o lvl English wahahaha unbelievable rite
I have a eng pro teaching me wor.. His my bunk mate slp beside me
some more same secondary schll wahahaha Singapore is really a
small . but we r doing big ok... wahahahha...

Anyway I sms him last nite.. But haixz He dosent gets wat I mean...
I gona work harder .. Anyway if ur reading my blog.. Sms me ok~

HEY to REGYNA & peggy ROCK ON GALs.. U gals have juz finish ur
BMT jia u jia u DUN GIVE UP KK Next stop sispec N Congratez on
POP TODAY ~~~~ Wish u gals GOOD LUCK WOR~!~~

I love this song I dedicate this song to D look through the lyrics kkz~

HAIXZ

2008-09-03T19:17:00.003+08:00

congratez to me peeps....

i have been awarded wif 3 weekends confinement....
wee u weet.... cheers... around of applause..

fuck u arSe suck3r... stop acting can .. can u go listen to take a bow... its over le stop acting ..seriouSly Fuck3r..

Haixz haixz Wat have i got into shouldnt be a goody anymore.
Wan play rite... huh Suck3r~ LET DE GAME BEGAIN THEN~

ARGH!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC
CCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

YESH I MEAN FUCK U DICK HEAD.. DICK HEAD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I NEED TO FA XIE..... CCB....

song

2008-08-29T16:48:00.003+08:00

Wahahahhahah Harlows....

noe wat noe wat noe wat?

I bought alot things sia lol... yeahhhh lax ppl... i didnt really pay for it lol...
smart lehhh... let me see I m wanting for next month cause it seems that all the shops the stock at queens town are down sia only next month come in new things.
I bought erm a long sleeve shirt a short wan another berm lol n a coffin ring.. cute dao... but it seems that i cant find the things i wan sia.. like a skull kind of thin tie with black as back ground n de skull would be blood red. or some lime green tie? and the sneakers I cant find the one I had imagine it in my mind.. haixz.... anyone noe where to get it? erm ya I gona draw my own print for my hoodie leh any suggestion?? I wan my name to be on the hood n a pair of evil cum angel wings on my back... red n white my hoodie is black wan... feel like calling Esther to help me draw sia.. but my own hoodie wor... should I????? N i dun even noe she free ma.. it seems that everyone is working le.. den I in camp also nothing to do so should design something for myself rite.. can improve drawing too..

DOmo

2008-08-25T09:04:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING......
Later have to book in le wahahah at 1 like this...
Today change song. a slap ur self song lol...
abit wat I m feeling rite now.. wahahahahah...
let me see nth to write..XD cyaxz.

sian

2008-08-23T17:35:00.003+08:00

sian siaN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN AR!!!!!!!

Y yyyyyyy y so sian?????? tian ar..M I boring or is this world boring??? TOTALLY SIAN ok... After book out of camp I will be at home. So wat? ROTTING=.=' FACING DE 4 WALLS? wan go out also dun noe wan where. N i hate going out alone... haixz... I think its jjuz me.. lol or tis is a bad time.. reason: My dear "frens" r all busying preparing for their up coming exam. where else I m so "relax" in camp..... Haixz face it man .... FACE IT AARON.... LOL..

Anyway this few days keep raining , n ppl juz keep complaining , comE on la raining is a good thing, its cooling la.. good for cool ppl lol lame dao.. haiyoo my upper studies r going to ORD or ROD in next 2 weeks time... gona say WISH U GUYS ALL DE BEST... but not from my heart really ... not in a bad way ok... jzuz after u guys go the bunk would be so motionless n is completely dead.. but I kinda like that actually but most of the bunk mates keep complaning how dead de bunk is now... But I think still ok lor... Cause if the bgunk is full of motion n life den I will be totally dead. ( Cause I m de one always kana aim) lol if ya noe wat I mean..

2 weeks of staying in le.. Not that bad actually, Surviving . umm think I have to face this world alone man.. can never find good frens buddies , n pei u dao di de BFF .. isnt it weird other ppl can find it like drinking water but some ppl juz cant. N sadly I m t6he one of them hu cant... I keep wondering wats the prob? is it me or wat? but if others ppl can have den the prob should lies with me rite. ya n i found out that I dun really like to mix with other ppl. If I have to, I would take a super long time to mix in.. y do I have such problems =.="" I rather be alone lol.. but I dun wana be alone.. goodness going crazy la...

Should end it here.. case close case close..... See bored dao can think until some crazy stuff while posting =.=""

In I go

2008-08-17T20:35:00.007+08:00

LALALALA... erm let me see... 2 more hours N I will be in camp le...
um.... den 3 more days I will come back den go back n come back in 2 more days...
LOL I think I getting used to this kind of life le wor.... ok la not veri bad but Still can
Survive... Time to grow up le.. Have to KAo zi JI yo...

TOday first day of lesson.. Tommy is my form teacher.. N I have 2 classmates wor..
1 lol I remeber one name only shit! sori to de other guy >.<>
PS dao.. I m going to try harder.. N hopefully my post request will be aproved den I can start to ask lao shi things le wahahhah.. Hopefully hopefully.. Dun noe y my jaw so stiff sia.. lol.. Must go rou yi rou to make it song.

Hopefully I can hit the gym tomorrow. Otherwise my doctor is gona yelled at me lol.. at least 2 times in gym for 30 mins.. But today dun noe y sia abit gout att. Hopefully tomorrow it would be gone? Plz be...

Tis coming sunday will have AHM sia .. Hopefully wouldnt affect my next lesson cause I alrdy miss 1 lesson le if miss 1 more time I think gona get killed la lol... So ps la alter de schl owe me 2 lesson cause I cant make it lol.. My fault becoem thier burden lol... N november I gona miss 1 lesson =.=" due to de genting lol.... argh bang wall bang wall >.<

OHYA how can I forget I cut my hair le.. Cause I dun noe leh I feel like my hair too long le wor.. But it seems short.. But its not SAF standard so I went to cut it den my fringe gone le... de auntie juz zap it away lol.. short fringe back but nvm la like this I More relax dun need scared later de botak uncle catch me lol... But I juz remember my de botak not in de whole week =.=" dots dao.. But wats the point rite.. I m suppose to have initiative n responsibility ma lol.... wa say until like veri garung lol... Shake heads in dismay lol....

haixz

2008-08-16T21:07:00.005+08:00

Ni Hao~

Ok ... after back track my post.. I found that.. all my post r.. all my whining and complaining.. abit abit happy posts only lol... wat to do... arhhhhhhhh
How can I change? So that I stop complaining so much? see even now I m complaining =.=""'' Haizzzzzzzzz Y so hard... let me see think something happy today.

Ok tonight actually going to have dinner wif my "family" den before leaving de house de 1 hr I had a quarrel with some bitch. Dun noe la.. WTF i juz came back from camp cant I use de com longer... n for her info I didn't use de whole I was taking afternoon nap ok.. basket.. another info her dear son after schl come back play ps2 den sue de com. while she goes out giving money too some bastard to fuck her. therefore I m not the cause to ur electric bills ok.. go get de facts rite.. N stop wasting money on some horny bastards or for ur horny desire or best stop throwing hundred dollars in betting..

So yea in de end went to have dinner wif Esther n her sis .. Had a great time.. So funny la our conversation... But Esther keep kana suan so funny dao... Happy times pass veri fast.. Thanks for leting me join in.. How I wish that I have that special someone to share my thoughts now... haixz breaking down soon Dam tired le... argh... I HAVE TO CHEER UP... EEEEEE:) Ok I m happy.. I M FREAKING HAPPY WAHAHAHHAHHAH...

Yeah yeah 2morrow going to have my first singing lesson wor.. abit scared n nervous lor... dam ps la but I will built up courage de ok... Jy Jy JY.. wahahaha no time to slack le ......

Erm n to my frens out there hu is going to have exam period.. JY ON UR EXAM WISH U GUYS GOOD LUCK... Remember to rest ok while studying wahahah...

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Feelings

Sometimes

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Emo

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HaiX

Fire n water

Late

Missing u

Happy

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Chapter 1

Night mares

New life

Melody

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Dk

why

En e

no point

cried

Y?

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Lies

Oneday

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Milo

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Miss

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Times~

Bdae

Mmmmm

No Point

Party~

BHB

Work

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Quality Hotel~

Final

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Regrets- dedicated to u~

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